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For the past two months I've had health anxiety. This happened at a time where I was going through a big stress in my life (where I just got back my daughter from being in full time care with my parents whilst I received psychotherapy). My daughters dad died last year of suicide
Before this I didn't really care about my health, even with a bad back which I've had since my daughter was born I could never be arsed to go to the doctor. Now past two months all I can do is obsess about my health. My consultant and CPN are aware. My parents just think I'm being silly. It's ruining my entire life. I've had to move out of my home back with my parents because I can't cope. I have lost interest with everything I do.
I've had the normal blood tests done full blood count, kidney function, liver, thyroid, ECG, chest X-ray (as I've had 3 admissions to a&e in past two months because of physical symptoms, mainly worried I'm having a heart attack because of chest pain/shoulder pain. Now I've got over that I am so convinced I have Cancer like I just know I do and I will prove to everyone I do. I am losing weight rapidly as I constantly have no appetite, feel nauseas and this has been the last 5 weeks and I've had pain in my left rib cage. Nothing in my life has ever ruined my appetite, not even when my world fell apart at losing my daughters dad and you think it would.
I have a Pap smear coming up and I really don't want it done But I know I have to. I know what the results will be I don't want my daughter to be left without a mum. I'm so scared. I feel like my brain is eating me alive.
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