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Will it ever end? I've been on citalopram for 5 weeks now and on and off I've felt more positive and normal I guess but every now and again a new obsession starts. I'm sick of it, I'm sick of being scared, I'm sick of constantly checking my body, I'm sick of it all!! Right now my obsession is my stomach, after eating, if I push put my stomach, the left hand side sticks out slightly more, I already underweight so not sure if I notice more because of that, I don't really have any other symptoms but I'm scared of pancreatic cancer or ovarian cancer. I'm still breastfeeding my nearly 2 year old, I've heard it can reduce the risk of ovarian and breast cancer but there's still thathe chance. I don't want to die, I want to be a mum to my babies I am so fed up of this. I'm waiting for an appointment with a psychiatrist so I hope they can help me, it's wearing me out its just a constant fear and I can't look towards the future as I'm scared I'll not be here or I'll be fighting a terminal illness. Thanks for reading if you got this far. X
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