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I'm at 21 year old male and this condition is ruin my life. As a kid I always worried a little more than most but never obsessed about it. I have been an athlete my whole life and really take pride in the shape I'm in. In high school and then in college I suffered a collapsed lung while playing baseball, both times it required surgery but I never thought about it once when it was over. As I got closer to my senior yr in college I realized I wouldn't come back and graduate but instead play the game I love so much for a living, it's honestly the only thing I know I'm good at and that's when everything started.
My first panic attack happened after getting hit in the face with a baseball, on the way to the hospital I kept thinking that I had some sort of internal bleeding, then my heart was going crazy, I couldn't breathe, my whole body went numb I thought for sure I was going to die. Obviously that wasn't the case but after that every time I would work out I felt as if my heart beat was irregular, I would get dizzy, short of breathe and literally run out of the gym. I started having panic attacks up to 10 times a day, I would look up every symptom I had and of course it got me to believe I had a blood clot in my lungs or a heart desease that was going to kill, it was all I could think about, I thought for sure I was just going to drop dead at any second. I went to every specialist possible all saying my health is great but I needed more, I was a regular at my doctors always getting tests done nothing was good enough for me. I started getting fluttering in my chest, chest pain, weak feeling in my body, hot flashes yet everyone said I was okay. I stared check my pluse every 30 seconds to make sure I was still alive. Clearly baseball had to be put on hold so I could get some help, and then I found out that I need shoulder surgery the one thing that can put a definite end to my career that almost hasn't even begun yet. Now I find myself thinking more and more about my health, I have again started to see specialist, all saying I'm fine but I can't stop thinking, for someone who has always looked a lot younger than he age, I can see myself aging quickly in the last 11 months. I can barely sleep at night, I take medics that's seems to help a little but the thoughts are always there, always having to know what the worst possible outcome of my symptoms are, it is ruining my life and doing it fast. I guess I'm just hoping that someone that has gone through this and found a way to make it better could help
Thank you for taking your time to read this
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