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i am terrified of dying young. I imagine in my mind being told that I have months to live and dying of cancer. My eyes well up through fear. I am terrified because I can't leave my mum. She has had a terrible life with my dad, childhood and chronic pain and since I was young she said I was the best thing in her life and her saviour. She used to say if anything happened to me she would kill herself. I worry and panic about the future. I wish I could stay young and stress free instead of being 28 and nearer death. Media health campaigns and scare stories regarding health terrify me. Sometimes I see no point planning the future in case I die or jinxing something. So I have no savings and a dead end job with little education. I currently can't afford any help and am waiting for NHS treatment. I have a cervical smear tomorrow and am terrified I will be told I'm dying. Please has anyone got any advice? Thank you so much for anyone who has.
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