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Hello, writing my story would take hours and hours since I've made most of the stupid things one can do.
First of all I think that I've always been bi-polar with a very chatter mind/overthinking mind and high anxiety levels, but it was clearly livable and enjoyable I was very funny always laughing. Then I begun to smoke marijuana almost daily. After for some reasons (Medical school) I search for nootropics since I have a pretty severe ADD and can't focus at all (despite that I had good mark at school) anyway I abuse those substances (Like Piracetam/Nootropyl and more exotic ones) whereas in the same time experimenting some disturbing side effects : Instead to give me sharpness and focus it used to increase brain fog, anxiety and induced something new : a mettalic feeling in life, loosing the natural feeling of life... Anyway I introduce next the modafinil stuff which was desastrous anxiety gone through the roof, I had some malaise, sleep paralysis with some partial seizure. After a strong sleep paralysis I woke up with a weird heavyness in my head, like some pressure sometimes in the forehead sometimes in the backhead/neck sometimes on my nose and upper jaw. It could be confused with sinus infection and/or anxiety but I'm not sure, I'm more affraid to had destroyed my brain. Since those experiences my life has changed to the bad. I'm pretty anxious all the time, I'm very sleepy, irritable, can't enjoy even watching TV and my funny chatter mind has become quite silent...
But the more embarassing for me is clearly this heavy head. I have made a scanner that have found some sinus infection that I treated to no avail... Need help here
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