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Heavy Head, anxiety, shaky, no motivation

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christian2
christian2

Hello, writing my story would take hours and hours since I've made most of the stupid things one can do.

First of all I think that I've always been bi-polar with a very chatter mind/overthinking mind and high anxiety levels, but it was clearly livable and enjoyable I was very funny always laughing. Then I begun to smoke marijuana almost daily. After for some reasons (Medical school) I search for nootropics since I have a pretty severe ADD and can't focus at all (despite that I had good mark at school) anyway I abuse those substances (Like Piracetam/Nootropyl and more exotic ones) whereas in the same time experimenting some disturbing side effects : Instead to give me sharpness and focus it used to increase brain fog, anxiety and induced something new : a mettalic feeling in life, loosing the natural feeling of life... Anyway I introduce next the modafinil stuff which was desastrous anxiety gone through the roof, I had some malaise, sleep paralysis with some partial seizure. After a strong sleep paralysis I woke up with a weird heavyness in my head, like some pressure sometimes in the forehead sometimes in the backhead/neck sometimes on my nose and upper jaw. It could be confused with sinus infection and/or anxiety but I'm not sure, I'm more affraid to had destroyed my brain. Since those experiences my life has changed to the bad. I'm pretty anxious all the time, I'm very sleepy, irritable, can't enjoy even watching TV and my funny chatter mind has become quite silent... 

But the more embarassing for me is clearly this heavy head. I have made a scanner that have found some sinus infection that I treated to no avail... Need help here

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  • jmcg2014
    jmcg2014 christian2

    Posted

    You sound like a person who should not be or ever have been smoking marijuana I'm afraid, your playing fast and loose with your mental health with your background. Never touch it again, see a professional and be honest with them about it is really the only advice
  • christian2
    christian2

    Posted

    You are maybe right, but I tried to stop for a pretty long time (some months) with next to no results. I was taking some other stuff though like natural herbs (tried almost everything) so maybe I should not take ANYTHING for a long period and see ? 

    But the change is so brutal betweed what I was and what I am that I can't have faith in the future, it's like I have destroyed my serotoninergic pathways or some glutaminergic/histminergic receptors ?

    I had some bad MDMA experiences too (combined with piracetam)...

  • christian2
    christian2

    Posted

    Sorry for double posting, but it came in my mind after reading several topics speaking about something which are quite similar to my condition, it come frequently the fact that it's pure anxiety, which I object since the fact is that alcohol which is a strong anxiolytic (or should be) increase my symptoms ten fold (but to be honest since I experience this feelings, alcohol which was a strong anxyolitic indeed became more of an anxyogenic stuff... So can't be sure about anything lol. But for sure is I tried many configuration in those 2 years and I didn't found any day of relief.
    • jo61533
      jo61533 christian2

      Posted

      Hi Christian.

      Don't worry too much. This is probably anxiety but a couple of questions

      are you on any medication now and was phenibut one of the nootropics you tried?  have you ever taken benzo's?  

      Jo

    • christian2
      christian2 jo61533

      Posted

      Hey Jo that's a pleasure to see people attentive to what other have.

      You can understand that for me it's pretty hard to trust the anxiety theory for someone feeling really well the pain. Maybe the pain is triggered by anxiety but it's real...

      As I told in a previous post, I have tried almost everything, phenibut of course (but never daily) and I have just taken benzo's short after all those dramatic events occurs (like 2y ago) it was a one week binge with a lot of alcohol, letting me fall into some comas...

    • christian2
      christian2

      Posted

      Oh sorry for double posting again. It's important to note that this feeling is like a mild dizziness too, in fact I don't notice any dizziness maybe because my system has adapted but I feel like deep inside me something is spinnin. It's so hard to know what we really feel in those complex situation.

      My right ear is sometimes clogged (whitout any reason have seen specialised doctors)

      some eye focusing troubles too...

  • jo61533
    jo61533 christian2

    Posted

    Hi Christian.

    i think you sound just like me. I was a heavy drinker for years but haven't touched a drink for 13 years, however although not drinking I have still self medicated over the years. Anti depressants, benzos, phenibut, kratom. Then after a back injury I was put on tramadol, amytriptalin, pregabalin, zopiclond and diazepam. I stopped them all cold turkey and my brain is fried! Like you, heavy head, anxiety, irregular heart beat, depression. Although I would dearly love to be drug free I am currently having to take large doses of Gabapentin to deal with the anxiety which is probably caused from multiple withdrawals especially the diazepam. I hope to slowly come of this and just try to cope. If I was you I would get thoroughly checked by my doctor and if there's nothing wrong then try and stay completely meds and alcohol free for a while to give your brain a chance to heal which it will. I know what you are going through. Stay strong

    jo

    • christian2
      christian2 jo61533

      Posted

      Mmm never been a heavy drinker, but I began very young drinking (certainly didn't help) it was always so funny, absolutely amazing. I have self medicated too, maybe more with herbal than you with absolutely no results except having every side effect possible (itchy skin, apathetic feeling)

      What can I add.. Oh maybe No libido ? And a weird hiccup that comes and go with absolutely no rules excepting that I never have more than 3-4 in a row... 

       

  • jo61533
    jo61533 christian2

    Posted

    I have sent you a post but it is being moderated. No idea why!!
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