hell on earth
Posted , 9 users are following.
i have made plans in my own head to finally let go. its easy to write that but this illness is just so bad and i cant bear the thought of another year living like this...sertraline 200mg doesnt work for me....and the thoughts of suicide consume me everyday. i tried a few weeks ago but made the mistake of telling someone goodbye. i cant an wont make that mistake again
3 likes, 30 replies
gillian20097 paul30710
Posted
Please allow us to reach you. We all care and know exactly what you are going through.
Your post suggests that you have had depression for a year already and I know that when you have suffered to long that you are convinced that this is how you will feel forever.
There is no time limit to how long depression will last but I've known people to of been ill for a very long time and come out the other side. You only have to scan these forums for stories to give you hope.
I know it's exhausting..I know it's frightening and I know you are lost but all it takes is one day...that day could be tomorrow...when you wake up and things are better.
Your depressed mind will throw out every negative thought and you will believe it but you must not let it win. This is temporary.
I urge you to give yourself the chance you deserve. You did not ask for this...Its not your fault.....Please give yourself the best chance you can to get better.
Speak to the crisis team. Demand that you get the support you need.
Dont give up mate. You have got this far.....that means you are strong.
The medication may not be the right one for you. Maybe you could change or have the doctor add a small dose of another antidepressant. This works for so many people. You are not alone Paul. There are millions of us fighting the same battle and feeling the exact way you do. We need each other xxx
paul30710 gillian20097
Posted
UK-Ven-medicate paul30710
Posted
Aspinan paul30710
Posted
You deserve to get well again and it's so hard to be assertive with the mental health services when you feel so low and desperate.
I pay my NI contributions so people like me, you and everyone else here gets the care they deserve and which is needed,, I really could not give a monkeys about cuts, finance, resources or budgets it's irrelevant.
I do not want you to have to go through another year like you have and nor should the professionals who are there to make sure you don't so firstly do whatever you can to stop yourself from suicide, call Samaritans, SANE, call 999, local out of hours GP, go to the GP surgery without an appointment and tell them there and then what your trying to avoid doing, call crisis team just do whatever comes to mind first and do it without hesitation.
Be prepared for hospital admission but if that is the place you need to start your recovery process then that's the right place.
You are not the person you are and deserve to find your way back and as soon as you feel an improvement (which you will) you will have the seeds of hope and optimism ready to grow, and blossom.
KEEP POSTING!
UK-Ven-medicate Aspinan
Posted
Guest paul30710
Posted
deirdre._03652 paul30710
Posted
paul30710
Posted
anne240 paul30710
Posted
I have fought depression for over 20 years. I have taken an overdose, been in psychiatric hospital, lost hoiuse, job, relationships. I struggle, and battle daily. I know it is so very hard, I really do.
Sometimes we feel we cannot battle anymoire, but I think we can dig into the depths and tell this illness it will not win. It ius so easy to give in and so hard to battle, I know. We want the feelings to stop, we want peace.
Over all those years I have upos and downs. I battled. I found strength from somewhere, I don't know how. I am battling hard now, I really am. I will win, I must.
I think we should pour out how we feel, it does help, and look at how lovely, lovely people help us through that dark period. I am very low now, but I will keep posting herem, and I truly believe people here will give me strength, because they all are battling depression.
Guest paul30710
Posted
paul30710 Guest
Posted
UK-Ven-medicate paul30710
Posted
paul30710 UK-Ven-medicate
Posted
UK-Ven-medicate paul30710
Posted
Sanctuary for the Suicidal London
deirdre._03652 paul30710
Posted
Please look after yourself, AND please keep in touch.... much love and regards to you, Deirdre xx x