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I am really hoping someone can help me as meds not working and im feeling pretty alone through no fault of my own. Ive pushed everyone away.
Just before xmas this year something happened and i only wish i knew what. Was like a switch had been knocked in my head cause from then it all went downhill. I questioned everything and everyone in my life. I pushed everyone away and i just dont know what to do.
I feel scared. Worried. Lonely. Terrible. Guilty. Sad. Anxious. I literally cannot stop crying. Im suffering panic attacks. Cant sleep. Eat. I feel like i cant breathe. My hearts tight and my head hurts and im terrified cause i think im loosing my mind. Literally loosing my head. I have been in a relationship for 5 years and i know he loves me alot as i do him but he too has been questioned and ive asked him to leave. Two weeks on i feel the same and so i know he wasnt causing this but i have nothing left in me to get back in touch. This is the 2nd time this has happened in life. Im 29. 6 year ago i had a mental breakdown and now i feel im back there. But why? I just cannot get myself together or out of bed. I literally am a in a mess. My meds no longer work but i dont want to just sit and cry to a doctor cause i cant get my words out. I have a good life. Why am i like this?
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