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I am very suicidal and I have anxiety attacks frequently. There are so many things happening in life. 3 years ago my father got abducted and he hasnt returned..my family fell deep into financial crisis. However, my youger brother left for university on my 150% scholarship and I was so passionate to continue with my studies (university) i got admitted to top universities on good scholarship 70-80% but even the rest I couldn't afford. I didnt want to waste my year so I started working a night shift at customer support and with $700 a month I started paying bills and rent and supported my family of 4. I didnt take a single penny for myself even my atm card with with my family. So i worked 9 hours for nothing but hope that next year I might be able to afford college. Its been 2 years and my family said that I'm a girl and girls dont need to be extraordinary. Just graduate in anything it doesn't matter..they constantly talk about the issues with my other siblings but never about me. They say bad things all the time and I have started to stay in my room all day locked up. I had many break ups and guys have literally used me for a few days and left me. I feel so worthless and used like I'm an object and anyone can do anything with me. I'm 21 and I have already given up on things. I lost my faith my hope and I'm miserable. Thinking about ending my life every other day. I don't know what's wrong with me
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