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For eleven years my life has been made a living hell by my neighbors not only because of because of my physical disability, but also my gender.
I try to keep myself to myself but it makes no difference.
During that time eighteen vehicles were destroyed, either smashed to pieces of filled with excrement and slurry, I've woke to find anonymous arson attacks during the night, and for eight years I slept with all of the lights on for fear of more attacks.,
My home has been raided and burglarized on many occasions and excrement and hate messages have been put through my door. I reported everything to the police time and time again but within a few weeks the attacks would start up again.
Friends got me to a place to stay temporarily for my own safety but that was was eight months ago, and I hoped things would have improved but even while I am away I am still getting the hate messages.
Most nights I fall asleep very quickly because I am so exhausted but I always wake now after an hour or so with the most terrifying dark nightmares, and when it is necessary to return to my hometown for essential items on the way I am now very physically sick. I wretch and sweat so badly. It's very embarrassing particularly as it is. In my friends car but there is nothing I actually can do to stop it. I freeze inside and I really cannot bear the thought. Because the most indescribable fear takes over me.. I re-live what has happened over and over again and at the slightest noise now I jump like a scalded cat.
I would give anything not to go through this and to be back as I used to be
Emotionally I feel numb inside. I used to have such a positive outlook on life but now nothing gives me any pleasure.
Can someone please tell me, what is happening to me to cause this?
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tinamn Bellhound
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It sound like you have some crazy neighbors.
I would move.
Aspinan Bellhound
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Why has it been allowed to continue like this, it's criminal and needs to stop.
elizabeth20203 Bellhound
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Elizabeth.
Bellhound elizabeth20203
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Even when I'm away they still will not stop. Recently a load of gloss brown paint was thrown over my walls for when I got back, and although SARI hate crime Organisation have been very helpful, the police still have an undercurrent of homophobia.and they will not fit cameras. If I could move, believe me I would, and I'm thankful to my friends who put me up, but disabled people should not be in this terrible situation.
sleep is really impossible now without these awful nightmares and the fear I have returning home just doesn't leave me.
The one thing I have learnt about the UK is, although there are hundreds of charities set up to help people like us, very few in my experience do anything more tangible but pass leaflets out to direct us to another charity...who then passes more leaflets out. Not one of the disability charities offer to help in tangible way. It really is a disgrace.
elizabeth20203 Bellhound
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Elizabeth.
Bellhound elizabeth20203
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Many of our social problems such as poor police performance and high crime is not something which they want to hear about particularly when they have just promoted how great their constituency is and the crime figures are so low, and this is the problem we all tend to have now in the UK. Equally, there are hundreds of disability charities who purport to help, but when help is needed, all they can offer are leaflets and other links to other charities who do precisely the same. It's all a blind really that we are supposed to have all this help out there, but in reality the charities only exist to finance themselves.
Im sure I'm not the only disabled person in this situation, but the plain fact is, the hate crime is getting worse, and with public sentiment as it has been contrived to be, our MPs are the last people who want to help. 😒
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