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Herpes has made me SUICIDAL

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ida79960
ida79960

Hey again.

I am a 20 year old girl from Norway who is studying to become a nurse and I actually think I’m pretty and cool. I’m tall, tan, slim, got long brown hair and blue eyes plus long lashes. but after this I don’t feel that beautiful a

nymore.

I’m feeling AWFUL at the moment and I just really need to get this off my chest. I’m literally crying my eyes out and I’ve already had this for 2 months.

How can I cope with this? I feel extremly suicidal after this, because thinking about informing this to a partner makes me anxious and sick to my stomach.

Everytime I see a handsome guy I feel guilty for just looking at him because I have herpes. 

Also I dated a guy last year and I’ve never been more in love. we stopped talking and now we started talking again and I just fear we will start to date again because I cannot tell him this he will totally spread this rumour about me to his bestfriend which is an asshole who would just keep spreading it.

Also he COULD be the person I got it from because I’ve just had sex once after him (not saying I’ve had sex with only two people) and I noticed symptoms just a couple hours after sex which is weird if my last partner had it.

ANYWAYS, this is making me feel worthless. And I also had. a terrible experience this weekend, someone put drugs in my drink and almost raped me 

and he would if not only my friend would catch him. After all this I’ve just gotten more suicidal thoughts in my head and I’m literally thinking of ways to kill myself because of this virus. I do not feel worthy anymore, I don’t feel like myself anymore. The smile I used to have has totally turned upside down ..please

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  • Patient-Mod
    Patient-Mod ida79960

    Posted

    Hi ida79960

    We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologies for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.

    If you are having these suicidal thoughts then we strongly recommend you speak to someone who may be able to help. The Samaritans offer a safe space where you can talk openly about what you are going through. They can help you explore your options, understand your problems better, or just be there to listen.

    Their contact details are on our patient information leaflet here: https://patient.info/health/dealing-with-suicidal-thoughts, which also offers lots of other advice on how you can access the help you may need.

    If you are having such thoughts then please do reach out to the team at the Samaritans (or the other people detailed in our leaflet) who will understand what you're going through and will be able to help.

    Kindest regards

    Patient

  • Guest
    Guest ida79960

    Posted

    Hello, please, it is never worth to kill youself. 

    I want to talk with you. 

    I am going to immigrate to morway next year. 

    I want to talk my expereice with you.

    Is it possibe to talk with you messenger/whatsapp ?

    • ida79960
      ida79960 Guest

      Posted

      Thank you, you too also! We can talk in messages here if you want to
    • Guest
      Guest ida79960

      Posted

      Thank you. 

      This is my facebook address. You can add me messenger here. 

      I am waiting for you.

      Moderator comment: I have removed the facebook address as we do not publish these in the forums. If users wish to exchange contact details please use the Private Message service.

  • christine_44474
    christine_44474 ida79960

    Posted

    You’re beautiful and this virus doesn’t define you , a lot of people have herpes and don’t even know it.  just take your meds and be protected and do you know if it’s hsv 1/2? 
    • ida79960
      ida79960 christine_44474

      Posted

      Lots of love to you! Yes, its hsv2, the type I feel people are more judgemental about
  • Vanderpump
    Vanderpump ida79960

    Posted

    Idk buddy at the clinic who seemed pretty knowledgeable about herpes told me that most people get symptoms 1-2 days after they sleep with the person that had it. 
  • Vanderpump
    Vanderpump ida79960

    Posted

    In a way herpes helps you take dating more seriously so you can truly find the write person for you. This guy that you like probably isn’t the right one because you feel deep down that he might tell his asshole friend something like this and to be honest if he was a good guy he wouldn’t tell that’s idiot anything especially something he could ridicule you for seeing as it’s the type of person he is. Also why is he friends with this person. Quality men need to be found and get to know them before deciding if you want to disclose. I’ve never had a guy have a negative reaction yet to be honest but I still have the same feeling you have and I’ve had it for 7 months. 

    • ida79960
      ida79960 Vanderpump

      Posted

      You probably are right, he isn’t the one for me and it’s absolutely stupid of me to take it forward with him. I also wonder why they are friends.. I guess I should just take my time to get used to that I’m carrying this virus. Thank you for your answer!
    • Vanderpump
      Vanderpump ida79960

      Posted

      Yes u are going to go through a grieving process make sure u get enough sleep and stay sober most of the time. Read a lot of articles herpes opportunity website is very good. Everyone goes through a mourning period I’m going through one right now 
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