High-Low Silver!

Your postings are always so encouraging Hightower. So sorry you've been feeling so low though. I know eactly what you mean about living life for yourself - considering whether the more material things in life really are that important (no doubt about it - some really are!- its just a case of working out which ones). Thanks for keeping us updated. Stay strong matey.

Gracie G

Hi High tower,

Glad you are back and feeling better. You have been a massive savior for me and I would just like to say a great big thankyou.

Life is crap at the moment but with this depression taking its hold we have to fight back and we will all win the battle in the end.

Be strong mate and hang on in there.

All my love NikkiM

Hi HT.I was wondering where you went :? I love reading your posts.You really do make sense.I was beginning to get paranoid...Since joining this site you gradually dissapeared.I noticed this and hoped it was not because of me!!!.You are obviously a really caring and intelligent human being.I sort of look as you as the \"Daddy\"of this site.I am glad you are ok and look forward to your postings.Take care.xx

Hey HT,

How u doing? still remember me? It's been a long time. Since I last posted I quit my job and moved flat. Best thing i'v done in ages!

Reading your post makes me worrie. U always gave me support.

I remember reading in the book u recomended. It says that it's normal that u feal bad sometimes. But that will pass and you will have 2 feal good eventually. In that time it is good 2 be selfish and just care about u fealing good.

The book is good isn't it? Curse of the strong! Maybe our mind is just stronger than what our body can cope with. It also says u should only do easy tasks when u feal down. Leave the more difficult tasks 4 another time.

All the best.

I'm glad 2 be back

M

Morning all,

I hope you all had good weekends and did something enjoyable?

Mine was great but just got a whole lot better. It is the possibly the nicest feeling to log on to the PC on a Monday morning and see all your replies.....brought a tear to my eye to know that you guys are out there supporting me – thank you very much. :D

This depression has been the bane of my existence for the past 6 months and im sure that you all feel the same. Where it came from, why it’s here and how we get rid of it is not straight forward. So far ive found a few of the answers im looking for and one I believe helps a great deal and that I would like to share with you all is this........SAY NO MORE OFTEN.

Have any of you seen the film called “Yes Man” that recently came out staring Jim Carrey (Great film btw!)……the guy says YES more to things that he would usually say no to and lives a happier life; when you have depression you need to do the OPPOSITE. I have been saying yes to everyone and everything for so long even when I didn’t want to, such that ive forgotten what it feels like to do things for ME. I want to live my life and do the things ive always wanted – not do what my friends, family and colleagues want me to do. Take charge of your life and don’t ever feel obliged to do something you really don’t want to do as you will get further depressed and unhappy.

Some of you may be saying “Yeh HT, but its not that easy”. I totally agree, its not. But if you really REALLY want to get better then you need to at least try to make some small changes in your life to promote recovery. Whether it be reducing your working hours, being more selfish at the weekends, cancelling those plans to see your friends/family to take more time for yourself…….it all helps. One step at a time guys and we’ll get there, just have some belief.

Misc,

Of course I remember ya pal, glad things are going good in your camp. Congrats on making the move and doing something for YOU, its quite evident that you have made the most positive move and the path to recovery is in full flow. The book is a life-saver……it says so much that we can all understand and relate to, and use to help us get better and beyond the confines of this damned depression. Glad you liked it, my counsellor is chuffed I passed on the info and that it is helping more people to get better.

Pinky,

Thanks for the positive thoughts. I would have been back sooner but felt I should take some time out and put some feeling into my next post. Im extremely angry and frustrated at the moment – in a positive way. I want rid of this illness and have the mindset to focus and drive forward and make it go away but in the same breath keep it away. Keep up the posts and try as best you can to prevent the paranoia……I didn’t go away because of you, im back because of you - I WANT TO HELP AND SUPPORT YOU ALL.

Nikki,

I am back……and im gonna push for some truly positive posts this time around – so if you need a boost, WATCH THIS SPACE.

Gracie,

Wonderful hearing from you, thanks for the encouragement to carry on. My wheels are back in motion now and im running downhill to gather some momentum before that uphill run. I agree, some material things in life are important but don’t let them consume you……avoid “wants”, “needs” and “must haves” as best you can as this only sets the bar high and can make you more depressed should you not reach that height. Best to have things that you “would like”, that way if you don’t reach it, never mind, you will get there soon enough if you have the drive to carry on working towards it.

Not much else to say really except a big thank you to all of you for staying here and listening to me, supporting me and encouraging me to carry on through the pain. I am always here should any of you need a chat, to offload or some positive thoughts either on a general post or a private message.

Have a great Monday guys, all the best.

Hello Hightower, Remember to look after yourself. You dont always have to find words of encouragement for others if you dont feel up for it. I have been reading everyones posts for several weeks before joining and think its a great site. I do wonder though if I am feeding my depression and anxiety by checking this site a few times a day. I have been on ADs for 7-8 weeks and I am usually better by now. I have tried to go a couple of days and not peek at this site, but I cant help myself. Im addicted!! I have taken great comfort from the fact that people have the same anxiety levels and symptoms as me, I could have cried when I realised this problem wasnt exclusive to me and many others fell the same. Nice to know Im normal (well sort of)! Have a great day everyone, Im going to try and wait till tea time before I log on again, lets see. Take care everyone

Hey Cherub,

I am slowly looking after myself more and beginning to like it too 8)

I don’t always look to offer words of encouragement, but i like the idea of helping others as well as getting help myself. Im regularly surrounded by negative people in my day to day life that i run away from them at pace but seem to get surrounded by them again, so i am being positive in the hope that they can raise their spirits and snap out of their ways!! (NB. Im not referring to fellow sufferers when i say this, im talking about the \"rest\"!).

I used to be the same as you - i once checked this site over 50 times in a day......just in the hope someone would have posted something i could relate to. I now check it a few times per day and hardly ever at the weekend - ive realised that i can’t help everyone on here and they can’t all help me so just read it in moderation......if it helps, use it :wink:

7-8 weeks of Flu, it should be making you feel better. Do you keep a journal of thoughts/feelings? Try not to focus on particular times/dates that you anticipate being better or you could feel worse.

We are all normal on here, just taken a slight deviation from the path, off the curb and onto the gutter for a short while. We'll climb back up soon enough.

All the best guys.

Hi HT, Cherub,

i agree that when you feel low, looking at the site becomes a bit of an addiction. I also find myself just checking to see if anyone has posted anything new. But I don't check it at weekends as I am too busy doing other stuff.

Today has been an odd one. Felt detached all day and slightly nervous then went down but I am not clawing my way back up again. Bit of a backwards step when I heard that a colleague hqas an interview for an internal job I also applied for. Ok, truth is I wasn't sure I wanted to stay but still cant help the \"why is he so mych better than me\" feelings. truth is, he isn't. He's just been with the company a lot longer so has more experience of the way we do business.

I am lining up other opportunities externally so here goes!

Hi LellyM, HT and everyone,

Good for you going for an interview, they are nerve wrecking at the best of times so putting yourself up for it shows youre a fighter. I bet the other guy is worrying the same as you thinking that you will get it. It is always hard when youre going up for a job against your fellow workers. In my job promotion only comes around when someone retires and not all are being replaced,cost cuts. Sometimes there can be 10 of us after the same job. Just do your best and if you dont get it its their loss!!

Ive felt anxious today due to the lack of sleep. I have got zopiclone but dont want to take them every night. I took one on Friday and slept like a baby, felt great on Saturday. I know the sleep will eventually sort itself out given time. I do think the ADs are working cos Im not worryi

ng about everything to excess as I was. I have never done a journal, Id only worry someone would find it!! Think its a good idea though. Take care

Hi Guys.Just a quick note.I am definately addicted to this site.Since finding it I have to look in as often as I can.I think I am actually starting to enjoy my social life again,and I dont even have to leave the house :D .Joking aside,I am secretly hoping that if I Get all my feelings out to people that understand I may start feeling alot better.When i first found this site I felt quite excited for a few days.It was like I had this little secret thet noone else knew about...apart from yous lot of course!!.I have had a crappy down day today.I was due to go to the Docs but I could not be bothered.I knew I would have to talk and I just did not feel like it.The Flu have not yet made alot of difference but I will give it time :x .Anyhow nice reading your posts.I will check in tomorrow and see how you all doing.It is my b.day tomoz so my wish will be that myself and everyone on here wil have a really \"GOOD\" day :D .So positive thoughts and love to you all.Love P.xxxTake care

Morning guys,

Happy Birthday Pinky, hope you have a great aday and do something very enjoyable. :D

Today should be a good day for me, im online looking for a holiday.....2 weeks on the beach in Mexico is looking promising 8)

Very short post, just wanted to wish you all a good one.

Hi.HT.Thanks so much for thinking of me today.It really is so sweet.I dont know how I feel today...YET.Waiting for the Flu to kick in.I hope you find the holiday of your dreams today.My brother has been to Mexico and said is one of the best hols he has ever had.Sounds great!!!Go for it.Have a good day matey.Take care of you.P.xx :D

Good Morning All

Happy Birthday Pinky I hope you have an enjoyable one :D

Well done Hightower for searching for holidays, sounds like a good idea. I,m still having good days at the moment.

It helps that the children are on Easter break. We arnt doing much as I still havent got the confidence to get out and about yet but we have been spending quality time together. We have decided to takle the garden and I,m even starting to grow our own veg.

The fresh air and sunshine do help lift your mood I find.

I,m wishing you all good days :D

:hug: hugs to all xx

NikkiM

loooooooooo pinky :cheerup:

happy birthday pinky, have a good one, :rose: errrrrrrrrm if ya get too many presents and theres any thats suitable for a *cough mature single guy, i *cough know someone and can pass um on to him :wink: oh and go easy on the booze eh ?? :cheers:

HT i took your advice and ordered that book you recomended, it should arrive today with a bit of luck wooooooooot :ta: and for what its worth, your right, when were ill we have to be a tad selfish at times and know when to say no to peeps, its hard to, but essential for a speedy recovery :wink:

ive had a great couple of days after a lousy time all last week yippeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, may it long continue, talk about \"its so confusing to be so many different sizes in a day\" as Alice said to the caterpilar in alice in wonderland :roll:

anyhoooooooos, hang on in there peeps and take care :ok:

cheers,

Ken ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ :cheers:

Hi folks,

well, as well as the internal interview at work I had one yesterday for a job at a different company and I feel as though I aced it!!!!

It did seem to go well and the job description read like my CV!!

So, all in all quite exciting. I have another one today and one more tomorrow. So typical, I get nothing for weeks then 3 come along all at once.

So life is starting to look up again.