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Back in November last year, I suffered a Major Breakdown - mainly because I thought I could get through life, even being severely disabled by numerous nerve conditions, and many other matters that have built up over many years. But by doing this, I always felt 'down' inside, but 'put up a wall' to block it, and put up a positive attitude to everyone I knew.
Many people thought I was a strong person, especially because I how I coped with everything in life, no one knew what was 'bottled up inside me' - and it stayed that way for over 30 years!
However, I took many people's advice on here, most importantly I booked to see my doctor the very next day, but because I was still such a mess, he told me to come back on Thursday, hoping I would be able to talk to him better.
I was put on Sertraline 50mg, my Neurologist though upped this to 100mg in the past month. I feel better on them, but I still get bouts where I just have emotional breakdowns over the slightest little thing, which I hate and try to hide. I never used to be like this, but since an accident I had which damaged my spine and nerve system, I'm on so many tablets it is unreal - by this I mean, 30+ tablets per day!
Anyway, recently I was given a website address which you can do online courses at Universities across the UK. I looked at them, and a couple caught my eye. Basically, I was trying to get my mind doing something positive, hoping to get away totally of depression. I know it's not easy - but I wanted to prove to myself, that I could still learn more, even though I am very knowledgeable anyway. These courses don't require you to be really clever they cater for beginners to advanced courses, and over 200 to choose from. I started a course even though it was a 5 week course, I missed the first week - but I soon caught up, in a few days. 2 days ago I finished it - I learned so much in just 28 days, it was unreal, and I got my online certificate yesterday stating I had a MSc in Digital Anhropology at the London University! Well, that course certainly took my mind off negative thinking, because that was what I was like before doing this course.
But since then I have put myself down for Cyber Security and Forensic Science, probably not everyones 'cup-of-tea', but I like watching and reading FBI files online, it goes far beyond what an average person would do to cover their tracks, yet it does not take much to find the perpetrator.
Oh,if you are wondering what a Digital Anthropologist does, it's the study of how various cultures worldwide use the various platforms of social networking. At first I thought it sounded boring, but after watching video's, presentations and othe images - the way we look at social media in the UK is totally different to anywhere else in the world. You can download the videos so you can watch them whenever you want to, which I did, to show my daughter - because everything they did was exactly the same as my daughter!
The best part is you do not have to rush through any course, and you can drop out at any point, if you reach 50% of the course it is still classed as a pass. What appeals to most people is all courses are free, you only have to pay if you want a certificate at the end of it.
Since, doing the course I applied some techniques that I learnt on Twitter, which I have never really got in to.. But, using I what I knew before and what I had learnt, I thought I would put in to practice. By this I meant, from just talking to one person on this website, which I had only a few very vague details to finding the same person on Twitter which I knew they used.
In just a few hours I found him, and sent a Direct Message saying hello ******* - I got a message back asking how did I find him with all the millions of people that use Twitter in a day! He was shocked, I was happy that by applying what I had learnt, and just using some simple mathematical equations on tweets you can basically find anyone without even searching!
Hence, why I am starting the Cyber Security course next Monday, with over 200 other people.
My depression is getting better, but it takes so long - I just wish I could just shift the emotional breakdown!
Oh well, perhaps I need to persevere with these tablets, until I get rid of this depression part of my life.
Anyway, just thought I would give you an update.
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