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every single thing i see, hear, feel, they all connect to you.. and i hate it. i cannot even listen to my favorite songs anymore, because i remember that i shared them with you and you fell in love with them too. i can’t even look at a photo of myself and not remember the times you told me i was beautiful and all those names you called me, i can’t stop thinking of you.. and most of all i can’t even feel happy anymore.. being happy reminds me of the days i spent talking to you, the times we spent talking for hours on end. there was so much time spent.. all for nothing? all to go down the drain? how can i throw away those times? how can i just forget everything we had? i remember that day you told me “promise me you’ll never leave me” and i replied back to you and said “just promise me the same”. you told me that of course you’d never leave, of course you loved me, of course we would always be together. but did you really mean it when you told me that? or was it all a lie? what are you doing now? do you still enjoy stargazing? we said one of these nights we’d take a car far out to be alone just us two, and sit under the stars. seeing the stars is my favorite thing, and now i can’t even look at the stars without a thought of you.. my favorites things, aren’t so enjoyable anymore.. how do i get joy out of the things i used to love? it seems like no one stays, and promises don’t mean a thing. i wonder what you’re doing now.. i wonder if your heart feels cold and lonely like mine.. and for some reason even though i try to hate you, i can’t find it in me to hate you, no, i would never hate you. i hate myself for thinking one day you’ll come back to me.. thinking that maybe one day we could still see those stars.. just how foolish am i..?
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