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I want to die

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  • jay_babes
    jay_babes Guest

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    Hi i am so sorry to hear that can you give me any reasons why and why you feel like this, and do not feel funny talking to a woman , i am 54 and there is hardly nothing i have not been through and if you read my page you will know and if you feel strange opening up , private message me , and i will try to help, and i promise you once you read my story you will realise you are not alone, and life is worth living, please contact me back 
    • jay_babes
      jay_babes donna75808

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      Hi if you look up my profile jaybabes and all the problems i have and what i have been through, but if you want to ask me anything personal then message me privately, i have depression anxiety, ibs, severe migraines, eating disorders, and now i have been diagnosed with BDD, so being 54 i have seen doctors , specialists, private care, alternative medicine, so not being big headed i came on this forum to get help and advice as well as i can give it too, so if you are having problems , do not feel you are alone you are not, we are all here to help , so get back if you feel you want to know anything , thanks, and take care
    • jay_babes
      jay_babes donna75808

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      Hi i am new at this too only joined 21 days ago , i am trying to see how you get my post , i can  see it but i can not see how i get it to you,   but i can get private messages , when you first signed up you put your name and could do a profile , at the top of your page there is a square envelope, with a star in it and says message above, go into that and from there send me a private message and we can carry on from there, if you have any trouble get back to me , and i will try to private message you, i have had only one it came this morning, love you to get back to me 
    • jay_babes
      jay_babes donna75808

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      Hi Donna i sent you an email to say how you can private message me also if you want to know about my story, if you read it and decided not to get to me that is fine , if you are having trouble just get back to me on here, that is fine and we can carry on , i just hope you are ok 
    • donna75808
      donna75808 jay_babes

      Posted

      I didnt get your email. I would like to know your story. I get really down on weekends and at night. I hate this feeling. Would l Iike to know if you felt the same way and what you did.
    • mariano
      mariano jay_babes

      Posted

      hI Jay babes...you sound like you could have some advice you could share...I am 64 and have Anxiety since I was 35...it has got so bad over the years that now I am nearly housebound...and depression has set in and has taken away my motavation to get better....would you private message me too please. xox
    • jay_babes
      jay_babes donna75808

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      I am 54 now and believe it i suffer with depression , panic attacks, ibs, severe migraines, eating disorders, insomnia, and now been told i have bdd, which i knew i had but i did not want to go there , it is a disease where you hate everything about your body and your looks even there is nothing wrong with you, and a form of ocd, but with having all of this it was not an over night thing all these things started from childhood, abuse, rape, and and then if you see all the problems they are linked, so i am 54 now and i have been to doctors , specialists, counsellors, no drugs i have not tried, and alternative medicine, and through all my pain and suffering i am still here, not for the want of trying to end it 3 times, so glad it did not work, so great news, i have experienced most life stresses, and today i am not cured but i am dealing with them i have a great doctor, great counsellor, a great partner, a few wonderful understanding a loyal friends, a loving family who put up with me lol, but most of all i am here and i love helping others and not ashamed to tell my story, talking is the best therapy, having some one to share what your going through , you then know you are never alone, so hun why do you get down on weekends and at night, is it brcause in the week you go to work, and at night you go home to a empty house or a bedsit also do you not have friends you go out with at weekends 
    • jay_babes
      jay_babes mariano

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      Yes i would you so sorry you feel like this and for so long, i know exactly how you feel and you really should not , and if what you are going through is private then tell me all about it in the private message box and i really hope i can help, with all i have been through i am sure i can please get in  touch , hate to hear you are suffering , take care contact me soon xxx
    • donna75808
      donna75808 jay_babes

      Posted

      Hi I dont have any real friends to go out with. I did volunteer but then I started to cry and stopped that. I'm alone and dont know what to do. I put my house up for sale and that is causing more stress.

    • jay_babes
      jay_babes donna75808

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      Hi so sorry to hear that i know exactly what it is like to have no one i know what i said about a great family , great partner and a few wonderful friends , but it was not always like this, i left home at 17 because i did not get on with my mum we clashed badly , did not speak for years, my dad tried so hard to keep things together, and my brother was off doing his own things, i really had it hard i had a terrible bedsit , training to be a hairdresser and beautician and mix with people who i thought were my friends but only used me, this went on for years, i loved my job went i but it was hard to pay bills feed myself , clothe myself and try to have a social life, then i got my own place, and i felt great , but i had to find more money, so i worked 3 jobs, and so a social life was not on the cards, i was so busy i did not realise i was working myself to death, not eating properly ,sleeping properly, all to pay for my house, and on top no friends did not have time and did not trust anyone, but you would think by all this just give up , most of the time i felt like it but i thought after you now have read my story , still after all that there is hope and there was i met my partner , i forgave my mum. and i only have a few friends but they are genuine , so first i feel you have depression and that is real you need to go to your doctor and tell him, i did because i just kept crying did not know why , he put me on medication, takes time to find one that suits you , if that is not for i am also seeing a counsellor, and they are fantastic, you have to look after yourself, and get strong, then you will be able to face the world and life and what it throws at you, take care
    • donna75808
      donna75808 jay_babes

      Posted

      I am on meds but that don't seem to help. I see a counselor every 2 weeks. I just wish the crying would stop. What meds did you take?

    • jay_babes
      jay_babes donna75808

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      Hi i was first put on a drug beginning with C, cant remember exactly the name but a lot of people are on it and do not get on with it nor did i, so the doctor changed it to sertraline, 50mg for 4 weeks then up it 100mg but i got bad heads but that is only because i suffer migraines, so i went back down to 50mg, still felt bad so i came off, but after a few days i started feeling sad and depressed and a lot of crying so i thought i best to try and start taking them again so instead of taking them at night iam taking them in the morning, i take 100mg but only been taken them the last few days , and feel not so bad, so fingers crossed
    • donna75808
      donna75808 jay_babes

      Posted

      That is what I am on. But I only take 50 mg so maybe the dr has to increase them. I just cant stand this feeling. I want to laugh again.
    • jay_babes
      jay_babes donna75808

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      Hi dont give up you will i am on the mend  i have my good days and my bad days, but i think you would benefit getting to see a counsellor , i have a she is brilliant very supportive and you can talk to me any time i am here for you
    • donna75808
      donna75808 jay_babes

      Posted

      Hi thank you for the encouraging words. This is terrible. Especially in the morning. I feel like I just dont want to do anything but cry. I just try to push myself. Talk to you soon.
    • donna75808
      donna75808 jay_babes

      Posted

      Hi thank you for the encouraging words. This is terrible. Especially in the morning. I feel like I just dont want to do anything but cry. I just try to push myself. Talk to you soon.
    • jay_babes
      jay_babes donna75808

      Posted

      You will get days like this but hang on in there keep taking the medication if you do not feel any better then like i said a counsellor would really benefit you, keep talking , it really helps stay in touch whatever your feeling let me know i am here to help, if you still have trouble talking about things go to your profile page and private message me , it is easy to do, take care x
    • donna75808
      donna75808 jay_babes

      Posted

      I am having a real bad day. Feel really shaky. On top of all of this my lawn mower just broke. Just feel like crying. Wish it would go away
    • jay_babes
      jay_babes donna75808

      Posted

      oh hun life can really get to us even the slightest thing can set us off, i even had a terrible week, i had mountain of bills to pay , just got back on my feet and my built in microwave packed up, big money for one of them, all i did too was cry , then 3 of my friends had terrible times , one called me been in an horrific car accident, she ii not coping too well, another her window fell out from her bathroom missed her by inches and ruined  her newly laid decking, and the 3rd , and older friend, her house burnt down last year completely lost everything, and couple of days ago her 35yr old daughter lost her life to cancer, so i have heard all that and tried to be there for them and i thought , what the hell am i doing crying over a microwave,  its stupid , so hun please think of the lovely things in your life, the lovely weather, the sun shining, put music on great to blow away the cob webs, when i feel low i put my favourite dvd of music and hoover naked waiting for my fake tan to dry , so please do not get upset over a lawnmower, take care your get stronger soon
    • donna75808
      donna75808 jay_babes

      Posted

      I think of some of the problems my friends have had and then I think I'm selfish. The crying is the worse. I am trying to make myself move. I'm glad that you are listening to me

    • sam18386
      sam18386 donna75808

      Posted

      Hi Donna, it doesn't take much some days to tip you over the edge, my counsellor did this recently so I decided to jump last night. I've had the feeling on and off since I was desperately ill 5 weeks back. I'm not writing this to make you feel bad just to say I do understand that it only takes a tiny bit to tip you from being ok to feeling dreadful. Keep talking, we'll listen. X

    • donna75808
      donna75808 sam18386

      Posted

      Hi Sam sometimes it helps just to have someone to talk to
    • donna75808
      donna75808 sam18386

      Posted

      Hi Sam sometimes it helps just to have someone to talk to
    • jay_babes
      jay_babes donna75808

      Posted

      Hi hun i am always here to listen to you and it is true the slightest thing can tip you over the edge when you are feeling like this and you never think you will get over it, but please believe me you will , it may not be over night but you will in time just hang in there  and remember we are on your side,take care , here for you
    • donna75808
      donna75808 jay_babes

      Posted

      Thank you. It's always nice to know someone is there that I can talk to.

    • donna75808
      donna75808 jay_babes

      Posted

      Hi it's such a beautiful day and I feel lousy. When is this going to stop?

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