I don't know who I am. I'm so depressed. I feel insecure and I look down on myself.

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I am on my 2nd year of college and studying BS Accoutancy as a scholar at a prestigious school. Accountancy was never my choice. I wanted to take a course that was related to Communication or Media Arts. But when I passed my application for a scholarship, my guidance counsellor adviced me to take up Accountancy because I'm good at math. I thought it would be a good idea so I said okay.

But then accoutancy is not about being good at math it's something even more! I dont understand each lesson and I cant afford a tutor. I feel insecure about my classmates being able to pass. I feel like I'm always not good enough because no matter how hard I study, I still fail. Now I feel depressed because I'm not happy with my course but my friends are telling me that it will lead me to a goodfuture. I dont want a life where I work at a job I'm not happy doing. Yes i will be able to have a high salary, but it's just so hard. That's no fun that's just really depressing. And since I cant afford going to psychotherapy, I thought I could get some help here..

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     Can you switch majors? I understand your friends are telling you this is how you will make money but you will not as you hate it. Attitude is very important in being successful. It is very difficult to ever learn anything you are not interested and dislike. I would strongly suggest switching your major to an area of study that will bring you joy. 
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    Since you're only in your second year I would suggest talking to an advisor about switching majors asap. If you don't love accounting you need to switch or you'll continue to be miserable. Go with your gut! Do communications or media arts or whatever you love. If you're passionate about your studies it will be easier to get good grades and get a job because you'll WANT to. Of course accounting can lead to a good job and a lot of money. But if it's at the expense of your happiness, then it isn't worth it. If switching majors doesn't help with your depression, then therapy would be a next step.

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    Hi there...thanks for asking for help !! This is always the first step...knowing you need help will make you go through with it...please try and get to a docter and explain your situation and feelings to him..in detail.if having trouble sleeping he must know this 2...i im on citalopram 20mg in morning and same in afternoon...this has helped me for 4 months coping with deb and anx...they call is SSRI' and will restore your well being and overall make you feel stronger within yourself and less ititible when having issues in class. There is many meds out there but i would say ask a trial of 30 days 1 each morning and see how your body cope... i have had many many problems...from drinking to drugs not being able to talk directly about my self and felt very ashamed daily of who i am where ever i are..

    Today and since i believe the 5 day..i starting feeling like 10 to 15 years younger in the mind...

    So to me i have a 12/ 10 marking for Citaloppram 20 mg...it has changed my life..my focus..my aim and brought clarity where i needed it..eay way to explain..it takes that edge off and just allows the real you to come out and think an feel normal again..

    Your doc will mention many many names. But try ask for SSRI' Mainly 1 per day 20mg.you can even half it and take 1 in morning and at lunch just to get use to it...but yes...docter first and support second...

    I trust you will update your progres...

    All the best!!

    Speek soon my friend!!

    Regards Jeremy

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    When I went to uni I wasn't sure about my choice of study and left it to do a different course. I didn't look back. Don't worry about it being ur 2nd year either. What's one more year at your age.

    If I was ur age I would do another 3 or 4 years.

    If u love the subject it won't matter.

    Good luck and talk to course tutor/doctor/trusted friend..

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