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I have been getting some very vague suicidal thoughts the past few weeks, not a plan or anything just a general wish that I wasn't here any more. I am tired, and tired of living and coping and not seeing anything I want to live for. I feel like this in company or alone.
I am still doing all the things I used to do but none of them bring me much pleasure any more. I am not more depressed than usual, i am quite buoyant and laugh and joke with the best of them but just have this feeling that I want to go and have peace from it all.
I am 61 now and don't have anything nice to be here for like kids or family who really want me or understand. I feel like my body is starting to shut down and I will just fade away in the end.
I don't have any plans but just a wish to be somewhere peaceful, I am on ad's and have had counselling in the past and don't need advice to go see my dr. I am just venting a bit (in a zombie type of way). Is there an end in sight? I hope so and soon. x
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