I dont know what im going to be capable of in the future?

thankyou for replying, do you know of any call lines? ive tried child line but it takes ages to get through and i can bearly understand the person on the other line, i will keep trying of course. but if you have anymore it would be useful to know

hi Kiran,

Sorry I didn't reply straight away, I just saw your message. So glad to hear a reply from you . . . I thought your name might be Irish? Or are you in the UK? 

If you are in Ireland, you could try calling the Samaritans or Aware.  I can't put the link in here but you can google the number, no problem I think they may both be 24hour helplines. I have tried finding some more as I think I saw a list before but I couldn't find it. I would try one of those though, they should be able to help you. 

If you are in the UK - the NHS website gives a list of different websites ( I found it ). Or else you can try Samaritans or supportline  

Hope these help, let me know if you need more help. 

anonymousgirl xx

 

thankyou ill check them out and get back to you soon xx

Hi Kiran, Thanks for your reply

Great, sounds good to me!

Just to let you know, I mightn't see your reply straight away as I have to do some study and I will be away from the computer (it's a public use computer, not my own laptop so I have to log in etc. to get onto it) but I will check in at 3pm and then again when I go home. 

Hope to hear from you again if you get a chance to message me, 

anonymousgirl xx

 

Hi Kiran, 

Did you get a chance to call any of the helplines? Any good? 

anonymousgirl xx

the reasons i am depressed are not reasons to be depressed about im just so weak and dramatic and i hate myself more every single day every day i think it cant get worse and it does 

 

Any reasons to be depressed are valid reasons. Never let anyone tell you it's wrong to feel or that what you are feeling is wrong. The great thing about CBT is that it will help you change the THOUGHTS that come into your head, or challenge them when they come into your head to stop the bad feelings from following It is great because it gives you control and power back over your mood. 

It's OK to be sad, it's OK to be angry, it's OK to feel weak or scared or tired. But it'll pass. And I bet once you get into CBT things will start getting better.  

 

i really hope the CBT works it starts on the 14th. i just want it to get better cos everyday it hurts more and more and my self harm helps but its taking more each time

Hi again,

a When you think of self harming again,pick up your .p.c and come n here,

I will keep popping on to see how your are doing,is it possible to go for a walk even if just for ten mins. not far but rather than sit there,are you watching TV to take your mnd,off for a while I know it is hard to concentrate with these thoughts and it tajes time but small steps hadn't turn reward yourself with something nice.

Hello Kiran,

People become depressed for many reasons; too much stress, the death of a loved one, poverty and despair... But as you say, that there are 'no reasons' why you are depressed. That goes to show you, that there is some imbalance in the brain chemistry...which can cause depression, anxiety, paranoia, suicidal thoughts...even with no apparent reason. The good news is, that there are remedies for such a condition.

Cognitive Behavioural Therapy is going to be very helpful. You are starting this in 2 weeks...but Kiran, you need help NOW. If your parents or your doctor were to read your post, you would be taken to AE for help now. You are in crisis. The hospital is there for just that, anyone in any medical crisis. Please show your parents your post, talk to them and tell them that you are having suicidal thoughts and that you are having trouble getting through each day. Or go yourself directly to a hospital on your own. You will be relieved that you are being taken care of and that there is help for your all consuming, frightening thoughts. 

If you had a broken leg, would you keep it to yourself and endure the pain? No! If you had diabetes, an imbalance of insulin production would you leave it untreated and refuse insulin? No! It is the same with any mental illness where there is an imbalance of the brain chemistry such as serotonin production. There are medications that correct the imbalance just as insulin corrects the imbalance in diabetes.

 

Dredge up every bit of strength you have and tell your family what is going on inside your mind. Tell someone, a friend, an adult you can confide in, a help line. You must get to a hospital now perferably with someone to give you support. There are specialists there to help you out of this deep, dark tunnel you are in. There IS sunshine on the other side. You can feel so much better in a matter of days. I promise.

is 'teenage heartbreak' as its called a real factor to be depressed out though? its not im just bieng so over dramatic and worthless, im so lonely and staying in this place it just too painfull 

Teenagers feel everything much more strongly than adults. Your feelings are raw and you live more in the moment. Heartbreak can be the straw that broke the camel's back in the sense that it has precipitated or pushed you into this abyss of intense sadness. Of course, a person is depressed after a breakup.  In the UK alone there are probably thousands of boys and girls like you who at the moment are suffering the sadness of a breakup. It is the degree of sadness and loneliness that is too intense for your own good.

As I said before, teens cannot see around corners. Don't think poorly of yourself because you are having these intense feelings. What you are 'feeling' has no bearing on your value as a human being. In a few days (if you get help) you will look back on this bleak period and say, "Thank God I am getting over that." There is light at the end of the tunnel but you need to take steps to get there instead of staying mired in place. You yourself say that 'staying in this place is just too painful'. Take steps in the right direction to get yourself beyond this situation and moving towards the light. And you need professional help for that.

Are you prepared to go to the hospital? Pack some special object (a teddybear key ring for example) and keep it in your pocket and reach for it to give you strength. And go! Please.

Yes. Anything can cause depression. Sometimes it's not even something that happened to you. You are real. Your feelings are real. And they hurt. I know it's lonely, but hey look, you've got us and that's a start, right? 

Kiran, life will get better. You can just go through things with your therapist. I know it's hard at the start but you will get through. We all want you to and I know you want to as well. 

anonymousgirl 

 

I KNOW it'll work! It might be hard at the start and you might feel skeptical and not trust your therapist but if you try and do the things they suggest, you can start to get better. It is so nice to be able to chat to someone who knows the right things to say as well. Sometimes family members just don't know what to say and they can say the wrong things even though they mean well. 

You are going to be OK. Please don't self harm, we don't want our Kiran to be hurt! But if you feel you really need to, then do. But don't do anything dangerous or risky. Please.