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My mom is a single mom, she works morning til afternoon which makes me just want to just think that all the things she does is okay because she’s worked so hard partially for me.. But, sometimes that’s not the case. I’m 14, and I’m homeschooled. My mom is.. let’s say a hard person to talk to..She got me homeschooled because she doesn’t trust me, I really don’t know what the hell she thinks I’ll do but it’s pretty depressing, I’m not allowed to have social media but I still have accounts for various of them.. looking at my Instagram feed I notice what a whole new world I’m missing, and at the back of my head I sort of just say “this is what my mom took away from me”. You could consider myself as the one of the most loneliest person ever and I’m not even exaggerating. I have about just 5 friends which we don’t even talk a lot, considering the fact that I don’t have classmates. My mom is extremely religious which isn’t bad but sometimes her being way too religious just makes her want to sort of manipulate me into becoming her own puppet, she compares me to her friends children where she thinks her life would’ve been better off with them, like my life was an accident, like she’s disowning me.. I can’t wear a t shirt unless there’s a jacket on top of it (we’re Christians) I can’t talk to a guy unless he’s someone my mom knows, I can’t make friends I want to be friends with cause she thinks I make bad friends just cause they’re socially active, so she picks my friends which are normally 3-4 years younger than me or older but with some physiological problem cause one of them is 18 and grade 7, whenever I get a text from someone she just opens it no matter what happens like if my life were at stake and the only way to save me was to not look at the text message she still would (not really but it seems like it) honestly I just want my mom to realize I’m only human, I can’t be that perfect godly daughter she wants me to be.. i remember Christmas.. from the moment Sat down I started crying my eyes out because of how unhappy I was at that time and it just got worse and worse ever since I started crying almost everyday.. New year I cried the most.. I just wanted to change the way I was living but I couldn’t because my mom is a huge hindrance to all the things I want in life.. I’m so lonely, I’m so deprived of a lot of things people my age would’ve already experienced.. I have more to the reasons why I’m depressed but if I wrote it all down I wouldn’t get any responses cause no ones would want to read somethings that long.. I want to start a new life.. a new beginning.. I don’t want to live like this anymore..Please help me.. I can’t take it anymore.. I’m really not exaggerating.. ):
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