I feel worthless and uneeded.
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Start of the year, I fell in love with a guy later to find out that he doesn't like me that's not what bothered me, for some reason I felt like I was worthless and pathetic I got depression which I recovered from after 2 months in those two months I thought about suicide I wouldn't eat and I had a derealization attack. Now after about 3 months I started liking a guy again which I hate about myself, thinking that all of this is due to a person, he doesn't like me either although I have no idea how he knows I like him but throughout all of this no one has been supporting me and my actual friends rub it in my face and now I have depression again no one knows about it, I don't want to trouble people with my own problems. Writing this makes me feel utterly dramatic and I know I am but it just feels like I don't matter anymore. I've given up on love since I am unwanted and my friends don't really care all that much about me. So basically I am alone i'm afraid of becoming a failure. I cry myself to sleep every night and I just ask why me I truly want all of this to end, I've never been like this before and it's all because some guys, but at the end it's much more.
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Hello JoannaAma,
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Digsby Guest
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Hi Joanna, you are not being dramatic....what you are feeling is valid. Your friends don't seem to be very supportive.....hardly friends at all....but I think you already realise this. You could work on building up your self-esteem & maybe distance yourself from friendships/relationships which make you feel worse. Are there any hobbies/activities that u like doing which could help u to meet new people? It's never too late to find a fresh group of friends who will appreciate you. First you need some self-compassion to value yourself for who you are.....unique, beautiful & special. I've learnt the truth of not being able to love someone else if I don't first love myself. Sounds like a cliche but it's not! Do you have family to support you & talk to? Don't give up on yourself please. Keep in touch with us here :-)
Possible82 Guest
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Dearest Joanna: I truly hope you have reached out to the various organizations. I will repeat a Dr.Phil quote. In that Some times you have to give yourself what you have not received from others. Another quote take an hour at a time or a day at a time. Volunteer at some of the organizations. I find the no kill shelters and local spca not kill shelters for me. You don't have to talk to people if you don't want to. Find a cause that is greater then yourself. Also food banks. If you are dating try to not burden someone with your problems. Everyone has problems you will scare them off.