I give up
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I now have decide to give up, no one cares. I took my pills today but I'm not tomorrow and if I'm good then I not going to take them, got the doctors on the 15th May, and will cancel as I don't think its helping. Do CBT online and phone calls, that is not helping, so will give up that. I am going to have to do it alone. I want to hide from everyone, I should be going to church tomorrow, but I will just head out with no one knowing where I am, just to sit with no one around me. I just have to do it, I not going to be a burden to anyone, so I'll just do things on my own. I don't expect people to answer so don't worry, I don't deserve anyone being nice, just had to get it off my chest. So don't reply and waste your time with me, seriously.
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roximl Blackhole
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if you really want to be alone, then that can help but you shouldn't distance yourself from everyone completely. Force yourself to go to church tomorrow, even if you don't want to. You might find that you feel better afterwards. At the very least it may distract you from how you're feeling. If it doesn't help, then you haven't lost anything by trying. I've been where I felt there was no help left and wanted to give up, but luckily I had someone who pulled me through it. There is another side, you just need to find the right help to get you there x
jemimah88932 Blackhole
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Pls don't think your a waste of time. Sometimes it might feel u don really have a reason to hold something when u somehow know it's just gonna fail and break down. But do u know that's how u feel when u are close to a big breach to break what's holding you from you happiness. I never fell in love before and when I did I admitted to this one person. He told me he loved me and that he will never let me go. At the end he said sorry Because he fell in love with another girl and after that we never spoke since..I felt so broken and killed..he was also my closest friend whom I told all my problems to and after what happened,he barely gave me the time of day to talk to him about anything. After that I somehow gave up on everything and I felt so broken. And then my mum helped me and she told me that life will try its best to bring us down and it's our choice wheather we wanna get back up.. She also told me that no matter what happens God is always with us....sometimes I feel like thats lie but now I know it's the truth....things happen and we will never understand why....but sometimes God allows things to happen to make us stronger than before. He does these things to mold us to became better and stronger than ever. Trust that no matter what happens u are never alone... And honestly I think u should go to church tomo...never let anything stop u from seeking God....it might hurt now....but if u do something about it u might have a chance to get back tot peace if u don than u will never know if u ever had a chance....have faith my friend....Jesus loves you
maggie80535 jemimah88932
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hypercat Blackhole
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archemedes Blackhole
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Ask for an urgent appointment with your doctor and say how you feel. You may well need either additional medication or some other treatment.
No doubt you will think that you know best and not take this advice, but you really should.
So stop acting like a spoiled child who is spitting their dummy out and get on with it.
Good luck
Blackhole archemedes
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archemedes Blackhole
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The people on this forum, many of whom have similar or worse problems than you are here to support people like you who are struggling.
You most certainly do not deserve to be ill - nobody does.
The point I have been trying to make all along is that you should use every effort to hang in there because your life has real value, as does the life of every person on this planet.
I know only too well what the fog of desperation brought about by mental health issues can do to people, and it is not very nice.
I implore you to fight for all you are worth to avoid going into that dark place that we call despair.
Blackhole
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hypercat Blackhole
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But why not turn that determination into fighting for your life instead? Liking yourself comes from accepting who you are and to captain your own ship through life. We are all super critical of ourselves but know that others like us and want to be with us despite that.
No one is a nice person 24/7 (well a very few lucky people) and most of us are a mixture of good and bad. Haven't you ever done any nice things for people in the past? When you suffer from depression I have learnt, you can't trust your own feelings coz it is this talking and not you.
We are all in one mind telling you to seek help coz you are worth saving otherwise we wouldn't bother - we would either not reply or say off you go then and do it. We care even if you don't. I just want to make that clear to you. Ok? Bev xx
sarah46408 Blackhole
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dita1 Blackhole
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But black hole see how many replies you have received to your cry out. People do care but I guess sometimes it has to come to this to grab others attention.
Your pain is very real to you and no one can feel it with you. But don't you forget that there are lots of people going through similar ordeal as you.
There are times that I feel that am in a 2 by 4 box and can't get out. It is a black hole indeed. But I never allow hope to fade completely. You know, sometimes planning and looking into the future, even when it all seem hopeless now can only be good for the psyche. Trust me it works , I've been doing this for 52 years. Even after this I still have hope.
Just you remember that in life for everyone there are good and bad days. No two days are alike. Your problems will not go on forever. Trust me am going through depression so I know the mental anguish you maybe experiencing.
I must say that I thank you for being brave in letting us all know what you're going through.
At my age I still can't bring myself in telling anyone about my mental health. It's a sensitive subject that no one want to talk about. So thumbs up to you and take a day at a time and see how it goes.
Thank you.
sarah46408 dita1
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anne240 Blackhole
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I have had depression a very long time, but there are ups as well as downs. If you don't want to take your pills, then that is your choice. If you don't want to take them, then you don't have to. Up to you. I don't know who does not care about you. You don't say. Are you saying there is no body in your life? No one at all?
If you want to give up CBT and everything else, then again, up to you. Depression is a very isolating illness. We cut ourselves off from people. Been there and done that. No good for us, but hey it is a phase. You will honestly get through this, I promise. I know because I have been where you are now. Battle on as I have done. Not easy, but don't let depression win.
If you want to be alone, so be it. Yes we all deserve people being nice. Depression has a very negative voice. Don't listen to it.
I will reply and waste my time, because I care about you. Everyone here cares about each other, that is why it helps uys so much to know there are people who know how we feel and understand. We have all been where you are now.
I care, I really do. You are in a blackhole now, but there is light above.
lesley99443 Blackhole
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