I Hate Myself And Am Tired Of Being Here. I just wish I could get murdered or something already.

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I have Borderline Personality Disorder and Manic Depression and Bipolar. I've been okay for 2 years, no suicide episodes or hospital lick ups in the Psych Ward. Lately i don't recognize who I Am. i really made a really stupid decision and can't live with it. I don't want to hurt my children again, as my 16 yr old has already over attempted suicide, hence following in my foot steps. I'd rather someone murder me. I don't want any more meds!! I just want to change but it seems like i can't. why am i here, taking up someone else's breathe. space. I'm so sad.

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    HI Lilly

    Know what you mean, wish I had an answer for you and for me and those like us, but I don't. Have looked for years; meds, therapy, god. NOTHING seems to work. I feel your pain and understand. Pray every night and every morning to "just take me".

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    please do nothing drastic. please your daughter doesn't want mum so sad and guilty go ask for some help. anywhere. god will help. (if you believe) friends who are true friends will be there. i was raped twice when i was younger, i have lost my dad. friends stick with you. bless you. ask for support, have you asked a mental health charity? they will help. i"m sorry you're suffering!

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    I will pray for you.

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    hi life can be very hard and im sorry your suffering you have to think what good in your life and hold onto them little things what helped me was counselling , love ones around me , hynossis app where it putting things in your mind

    hope you be ok


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