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So up until two weeks ago, I have been the happiest, healthiest person on this planet..Until there was a discussion about sexual health at my workplace. A couple of guys started talking about how it's silly to just get tested for STD's such as Chlamidiya and not go the whole hog and get bloods done also. This got me thinking, I have had more than 5 episodes of unprotected sex in my lifetime, and always been checked for the most common STDs, but not anything else.
Since that discussion, it has well and truly taken over my life. It is all I am thinking about, even when I was in a long term relationship for 2 and a half years, I've gone back throughout my sexual history and it is well and truly driving me mad. I'm constantly scouring the web for stats and rates of catching HIV - it's stopping me from eating properly or concentrating on anything. I don't think it helps that I have just entered a new relationship with the most amazing person, who has never had unprotected sex in his life, therefore it's kind of making me feel a bit of a scrubber to be honest!
I have always been healthy, and have regular STI checkups in which every single one has come back clear. Why has it now decided to take over my life? I do suffer with anxiety and I feel that this isnt helping matters. I have booked an appointment at a GUM clinic tomorrow to get the bloods done.
I think my main reason in writing on here was just to get all these feelings of doubt out of my head and vented where others could share their experiences, and maybe make me feel better? I just want my life back. I have so many things to be positive about, but this negative is just taking over.
If anyone could share experiences, or just give some friendly advice, it would be much appreciated.
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