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So I am a 16 year old male 17 in 2 months. Hi. Anyway I am going to tell you the a version of my life story for context. I spent my life up until I was 13 living on a farm with my mom dad and 7 siblings, after that my parents separated and my mom moved to town I spent half my time with her starting then. she had always home schooled me and my siblings and she kept doing that till I was about 15 ish, then I joined a school program where I did most of my work online, I only had to go in a few hours a week and didn't have to talk to many people (by the way I was never very social, I talked to a few people on the internet but in real life I only knew like 4 people outside the immediate family) I was happy with that program but wasn't motivated so I didn't do enough work, so about 3 months ago I moved to a normal school program I liked it I enjoyed the human interaction and I hated weekends and holidays cause I couldn't go in and talk to my friends or learn stuff (did I mention I love learning stuff at school?) But a while ago maybe 4 weeks? I started feeling something I didn't understand it at the time and I'm not 100% sure I do yet. I would start getting weird muscle twitching every where, I would have a little trouble focusing and forgot some things, stuff like that. I didn't think much at first it wasn't to bad I could ignore it, and I did but it has been getting worse and worse, I don't know why but I think it's anxiety. I will be fine for my first 2 periods then about 15 minutes before we switch classes I start to stress, (not about anything its odd I just get stressed) and it gets worse and worse by about 5 minutes into 3rd period I am having trouble focusing, nothing feels real or like it matters, I have constant muscle spasms and shaking, I will get lost in thoughts about nothing and snap out to find I have been grabbing stuff and holding it tight, pulling my hair, rubbing my face, or sitting with my legs pulled up tight to my chest rocking back and forth on my chair, ect. It settles most of the symptoms a lot if I have an interesting human interaction I'm interested in to focus on, but not enough that my friends don't look at me odd and ask what's wrong, I have multiple times had someone drag me to my brother and ask "is he okay?" Or "what is he on" and he will look at me and say something like "I'm not sure to be honest) and I will assure them I'm fine. These symptoms last anywhere from until 5th period to sometimes even 8th period. I could ignore these but I talked to my teachers and I was getting all grades need this that were mostly A's and a few B plus's or B's but in 4 of my classes my teachers say based on my work from the past week I am failing. All this because no mater how hard I try I can't focus. I'm worried any advice or help would be good. It might be good to mention that I am not doing any drugs and never have, I once got kinda drunk and once drank like halk a gallon of mountain dew and was basically high from the caffeine in that but aside from that I just about never take caffeine. It also might be relevant to mention I think I might be suffering from depression, for about 2 to 4 months I'd guess I have been getting really dark and sad or depressed (human interaction usually makes it a bit better cause I have to force a smile and that makes it ni so bad cause I have something else to think abiut) but that's about it, I hope some of you read this and some of you have some advice. Ask me for clarification anywhere you need, thank you already
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