I have been on mirtazapine for 5 years since i lost my wife

If you don't find all the answers here check around. Although I'm on 15-30 mg.of Mirtazapine as needed for sleep I haven't delved into the type of antidepressant it's in. To me it's just ano

Firstly my empathy for the passing of your wife..it would of not been easy to adapt from such companionship ....Withdrawing from Mirtz or any co-depenency drug will be an emotional experience, though possible to achieve..It seems you have made a decision to stop the medication, and now you are looking for support , this is really good.It appears you have also recognised a fear regarding the withdraw symptons and drawing on your courage will help Maybe look to getting a cousellor or therpaist to support you while coming off mirtz..Its possible you will experience strong emotions from withdrawing and its common to relate these emotions as a re-living /experience from the trauma...So keeping this in mind, allow yourself a few weeks to understand that you will have withdraw symptons and not to draw any conclusion during the process...I have recently come off Mirtz for 3 weeks now, however i did gain weight so the doctor prescribe me duromine and i think this has helped me feel "upper" during the withdraw process...I also have been given a benzo ( 30 days supply) for any sleeping or anxiety that has been occuring from the withdrawing...I have a couple of anxiety attacks, but very rare between and nothing in comparssion to before i began Mirtz..Yes i am expereincing ups and downs, but these are emotions...your aloud to have emotions and its safe to have them I couldnt stress the point more to try not to draw any conclusion on the way you feel or think when quiting Mirtz...Coming of meds is a process and it goes in stages...you have various  withdraw symptons, perhaps anxiety, itching, feeling iratable, insomnia and strong emotions/moods- I like to think of these as psychical...then as these ease your emotions will feel different, you may not get the anxiety and "psychal symptons" but you may feel apathy or depressed or happy or both,...this will also balance in time..you have to withdraw, then you have to adapt back to a living without the co-dependant drug..this can take months, but this doesnt mean the "scary withdraw symptons" will continue for that long..To be honest I have been fine and doing really well- I have a weeks supply left of benzo and duromine so my next option will be natural therapy!!..and as folly as it seems...smile..infact put a smiley face post sticks all through your house and good music ....