I have been really depressed for two weeks and i want to be helped and feel happy again. Please help
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I have been feeling really depressed lately. To be accurate it started on September when i started registering for school. And i was really nervous since its an important year and next year i am a senior. So it all started with stress and the stress turned into sadness when my best friend decided to end our friendship and let me just say that i am madly in love with him and i have grown to be attached to him even though w barely see each other i have grown really attached to him. And then my sister knew she deleted all of our one year chat and she deleted his number and on top of that she didn't allow be to be in contact with him anymore and that left a huge impact on me. But my sister didn't stop me from having contact with him. He texted me the other day and apologized and he was sorry and when i told my sister that i gave him a second chance she was p****d she started yelling at me through the phone and told me to block him. Because i was eager to have him in my life i lied and said that i blocked him.
Now i am living in constant fear that my sister would find out and take away phone. It might sound stupid but my phone is the only thing that keeps me happy....
When school started thats when my stress levels increased. I am always worried that i won't pass this year and if i do i am scared that i would fail my officials and disappoint my parents. The thing is that all the translation is on me. The teachers pressure me alot which made me think of dropping out of school for good. Because living in constant fear of failing is the worse.
I feel lost and sad. Lonely and pathetic. Ugly and worthless. I feel like a piece of s**t. I'm good for nothing. I feel like a burden to everyone whom i talk to. I want to distance myself from everyone but at the same time i want people to show me some love. I want real friends that would be glad to help me out through this. But i only have two and sometimes i stop myself from saying these because i don't want them to feel annoyed. And one of those two introduced me to Patient.
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