I have nothing to live for. . .

Hi,

Sorry to hear your so down with your life and yourself.

This world today is so weird, we can Skype, text and email almost instantly, yet many of us have never been lonelier before now. We have to do everything at 100 miles an hour and it's easy to drop out of the "zone". Once we do its a he'll of a journey back.

You love your family, yet live hundreds of miles apart, you hate your job and your work colleagues.

It would seem obvious what you should do, but financially you cannot . Change is required, only you can change it, perhaps one step at a time.

Make a plan for say 12 months time. Find a job you enjoy doing but plan to do better in that job, make one or two casual, but genuine, friends much better than hundreds on Facebook. Time is on your side-make it better for you.

Mike.

Sounds like your in a lot of pain, maybe being by your family would benefit you as you would have them there

To talk to and go to in your dark time

I understand how you feel, I'm 45 years old my girls have both moved out and there is me and my husband

He's amazing but doesn't understand

He does try but can't get his head round it

Hi Gary

Firstly your so wrong sir there's over 5000 people on this site you have just gained 5000 new friends all that understand different things about you.

I think you should consider moving closer to your family as well one thing you don't like you job most of your adult life is spent at work you know it's not fair but it's fact sobyou should at least be able to say I enjoy my job.

The thing your worrying about regards rob expense is actually the cost of living although that is always conditioned by the pay amount for instance were I love beans may be 80p if I go to londen they may be 1.20 same product but my job here pays 350 ow week there the same job would pay 450 per week you can check that no probs at all just look up what your work pays that way

I now need to ask you a question as it stood out to me and I thought instantly why did he say that I over think things so wonder why did you included your sexuality in the post I don't understand if you thought it mattered to anyone or whether you were instantly putting up a barrier sort of saying I'm more in the miniority maybe it's just because you prid and if it is that's great ya know I just thought why so hoping the question doesn't offend it just mind boggled me

Thinking of you

Mike

Oh Gary I hope this doesn't sound stupid but now you have posted on here you have friends who will try and support. I'm in the same boat I have noone I can just have a cuppa and chat with i suffer from terrible depression got addicted to codeine put on subutex and soon getting detoxed off that and I'm gonna plunge into terrible depression just like I did when I had a previous detox I moved back to be near family for support it has helped so it may be worth a try. Don't use Facebook for friends you need people in your life 2 close friends are worth so much more than 500. Keep strong my friend you never know what's round the corner I send you lots of hugs and best wishes from the kindness of astranger xx

Hey Garya,

I am sorry to hear that you are down, the thing is that you are not doing any good to yourself, I am not talking about ending your life, I mean the whole context. Just read again what you wrote, all your thoughts are negative. I do understand that you are in pain, but I don't think it's fair to yourself and the others that love you, you should change your thought process.

It is true that a lot of people in this forum can give you support that you need by changing the way you think. You should empower yourself with positivity and the outcome will definitely be positive. If you think being next to your family why aren't you quit your job that you hate so much and move in with your family for a month or two and later you will figure out what to do nex. I am not a religious person, but there is a good proverb: "If God closes one door, he opens up another". Look the bright side of the life, no one told us that the life was going to be easy. Just empower yourself with positive thoughts.I wish you all the best. I hope you can find that courage within you to transform yourself.

Hi Gary, I feel for you - your story has many similarieis with mine. I too am gay (female) & suffer with depression - have been on meds almost 25 years & keep having recurring bouts of depression where those suicidal thoughts are creeping into my head on a more regular basis.

If you would like a friendly ear to talk to I'm hear to try to help you in any way that I can.

J