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This is now going into my eleventh week of citalopram 20mg and because it caused me insomnia since coming off mirtazipine and going on to the citalopram, I’m really struggling with the nights and it’s making my anxiety worse I’m so scared. Six weeks ago the doctors prescribed me zoplicone but for some reason the last two nights it’s not worked and I’m in such a mess. Yesterday the doctor gave me diazepam 2mg which I’ve tried to use but I’m not having much luck with it.
I spoke to a mental health nurse in the night and they said that the drugs are just tools and none will work on their own, I need to learn to deal with the anxiety, but I’m so scared I just don’t know how. There have been times in the night when I’ve felt so afraid I’ve thought I’d rather not be here anymore. It breaks my heart because I have a daughter and husband and I know it would devastate them but right now I’m terrified and can’t see a way out. I know I could up the citalopram to 30mg but I’m scared of getting worse. Please can anyone advise me I just don’t know how much longer I can go on for. I have had some good days a week ago but now I feel like I’ve gone back again and I know it’s the disrupted sleep that’s doing it.😢
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Guest gemma77546
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Hi Gemma
I was feeling really low just a week ago with horrible thoughts going through my head but I have been feeling a bit better the last couple of days and I am sure you are going to feel better soon too.
Sleep is the biggest problem, I understand that, it sometimes is for me too..
What I do before trying to sleep is deep breathing and I listen to relaxing music on YouTube, I let it run throughout the night, very slow delta waves. Some videos last for 6 hours. It doesn't always work but does some of the time.
Try pacing yourself during the day, don't do everything all at once, do a bit, rest a bit etc.
I suppose you are familiar with other remedies such as eating foods containing magnesium before bed and avoiding caffeine or any stimulants. Green tea is good or Camomile. Try to avoid antinflammatory foods too . Anxiety will play tricks on you, you know you are healthy so try to accept the anxiety. These things I have been telling myself over and over. Another thing is don't Google your symptoms otherwise you will come up with lots of crazy diagnosis and it will drive you mad. If you have not had your bloods done recently ask the doctor to have them done. Once you know that everything is in order you can relax. I think many of us wonder whether all these weird symptoms means something more serious. I did that recently and perhaps that is why I am feeling a bit better this weekend. Had results on Thursday.
The other thing I do is take my mind off by watching something funny on the TV, doing puzzles, reading magazines.
The best remedy is talking to a friend, someone you can trust and understands how you feel. I have such a friend who suffers with agoraphobia.
Don't despair, you will feel better, and you will enjoy spending time with your daughter and husband again. Many people here have gone through all you are going through. You are not alone.x
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lois95799 gemma77546
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gemma77546 lois95799
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Is it normal that the ziplocone has stopped working or do u think it's just heightened anxiety. When it was like this six weeks ago I did a week on 7g then reduced down to 3.5 which is the lowest possible dose here.
kelly58470 gemma77546
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I wonder if your doctor would let you go back up to the 7 g? At least until your anxiety goes down.
?I know it's not what you want to hear, but I think it's time to go up to 30 mg. The 20 mg just doesn't seem to be doing the trick, and if the anxiety is getting worse, now would be a good time to go up.
?People can build a tolerance to ziplocone, which is probably why it's mostly prescribed for short term use. I would imagine that moving back up to the 7 would take care of that, though.
lois95799 gemma77546
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It's just the anxiety.. try taking the two at the same times see what that does..?
gemma77546 lois95799
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Okay I'll try that tonight. Does everyone's anxiety go up and down to this degree at this stage or is it just me.
lois95799 gemma77546
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I just want it to end I just don't know if I should now go up to 30mg.😬
lois95799 gemma77546
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You know when you do upped your going to go right back where you started..that's something to think about..is not like your going to feel better instantaneously..
maria41354 gemma77546
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will20275 gemma77546
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Gemma,
Yes it’s normal please don’t dwell on it. I know it’s easier said than done. I was dwelling on it a lot. I’m on week 17 and the sleep is getting better. I agree totally the meds are a tool. You will see a difference with cutting out the caffeine. Here’s also what helped me:
Go on Utube and listen to Rebekah Borucki with her breathing and meditation. I listened to her for many weeks with my headphones and iPhone. Also no electronics before bed. If you have IOS set the nighttime mode at 6pm to take the blue away from the screen. Please keep posting and PLEASE SPEAK WITH YOUR HUSBAND and Daughter about your feelings. I’m getting anxiety thinking about you! Promise me you will let us know how you are doing. WE CARE!
and want to help. You can always message me anytime!!! 👍🏼👍🏼🙏🏻🙏🏻😇
Will😎
gemma77546 lois95799
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I thought that and that's what is putting me off. It's just I feel like maybe the doctors are right, they said if 20 is going to work it would have by now. I feel so torn I just don't know which is best. I know you and Kate cogs both hung in there and you it there in the end but I'm finding it hard to think that there'll be light at the end of the tunnel x
gemma77546 maria41354
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Yes I'm uk, I'm only on 10mg so I only take them if my hearts racing x
lois95799 gemma77546
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That's what all the doctors say..with the exception of some phychiatrist that are really inform about these meds..when I first went on the doctors said oh in two weeks ..boy where they wrong..or let's upped your dose..boy where they wrong...
gemma77546 will20275
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Thank you will, I have told my family how I feel today but I'll keep u posted
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Marf gemma77546
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will20275 gemma77546
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Thanks Gemma . We are here for you! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻😇😇😇
gemma77546 Marf
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gillian176 gemma77546
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Everyone’s giving good advice here
Stabilise yourself on the 20 mg for now. I was good 12 weeks second time round before the light started to dawn
Yes my insomnia was worse too
I just kept going
And yes you need to self help yourself
You will get there. You can do it
Don’t give up now
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