1. Community
  2. Women's health
  3. Menopause

I Just Want This To End. I Want My Life Back 😢

Posted , 9 users are following.

debbie_18471
debbie_18471

Woke up early again this morning with the the usual jitters and nervousness. Started crying, I just want to wake up to my normal self again. Feel so discouraged sometimes. I try to self talk to myself "this is not forever, you will get your life back", This morning it's just hard. I want to live like everyone else. I find myself watching TV and movies and picking out the women I know are my age and saying " look at them living a normal life acting and doing great, why not me" Sorry for the pitty party this morning Ladies. I just want to be normal again.

❤️Debbie

1 like, 14 replies

14 Replies

  • debbie03785
    debbie03785 debbie_18471

    Posted

    Oh how I know that feeling. It stinks, doesnt it? Im in my 4th peri year, and many of the symptoms have passed. But Ive got a load of new ones due to hypothyroidism. Arrrggghhhhh!! Thinking of you. X
    • debbie_18471
      debbie_18471 debbie03785

      Posted

      Hi Debbie,

      You have a wonderful name 😊. So sorry for your other symptoms and hyperthyroidism. Yes this time of our life does stink. Some days are better than others for us all. Have a good one and take care. Thanks for responding 😊

      ❤️Debbie

  • jamie50513
    jamie50513 debbie_18471

    Posted

    It's ok Debbie,

    Feel free to have your pity party. I feel like that too. I have been trying not to have a panic attack all morning. It's truly nerve wrecking. I'm trying to ignore the feelings and keep busy. I even bought a mandala adult coloring book to keep from going crazy. I know the symptoms can be discouraging and hard to deal with but you are not alone and we will get through this. I know it's easier said than done but we really will get through it.

    • debbie_18471
      debbie_18471 jamie50513

      Posted

      Loved that you bought an adult coloring book, That is fantastic. I loved coloring, very relaxing. I was thinking of journaling. That way when I do have good days and write about it I can look back and find encouragement when I have a day where I struggle. Thanks for responding and for responding and for the sweet words. Hope you are doing really well today and you can look back on today as a good one.

      ❤️Debbie

    • jamie50513
      jamie50513 debbie_18471

      Posted

      Journaling is a good thing to do and definitely a good way to reflect on the good days. It will help you get through. I am doing ok today. I've had my moments today but I talk myself down or try to find something to do to focus on even if it's venting on this forum. Sometimes it helps to let it out. This is one place where you can let it out and and these lovely ladies can relate. I hope as the day goes on you feel better.
  • Sochima822
    Sochima822 debbie_18471

    Posted

    Debbie, did you also buy the Maca root? Did you take your St. John's? I think you need both. I know you'll get thru this, just hang in there and take your herbs.
    • debbie_18471
      debbie_18471 Sochima822

      Posted

      Hi Pat,

      Thanks for the wonderful recommendation of Maca Root. As soon as my husband gets home we are going to local health food store to get all my goodies. St Johns Worts, Maca, and Passion flower. I was better today after I had my struggle this morning. Mornings are always the biggest struggle for me. A little panicked right now because my husband is showing houses and I'm alone. Turned on the hallmark station to watch a movie and stay distracted. You and your husband sound adorable. It's sounds like you guys are really good to one another, I am really blessed with an amazing husband as well. So supportive and always there when I need him. Thanks for always being so encouraging and thoughtful. Have a wonderful night and I will let you know how the herbs work.

      ❤️Debbie

  • julie45644
    julie45644 debbie_18471

    Posted

    Felt exactly the same only 3 months ago. Had to leave my job as I just wasent able to function. Terrified for no reason. Panicking and overwhelm by everything. I just wanted to end it all. Dr was so supportive as I sat in her office begging her to send me somewhere as I thought I was going mad.

    3 months later with the help of hrt I am all but back to my old self. OK it cones with some side effects but its getting better each month.

    Quality of life for me far outweighed the risks.

    Can't believe how my life turned around in just a few days

    Not for everyone I know but worth considering

    I wish you well. X

    • debbie_18471
      debbie_18471 julie45644

      Posted

      I hear you Julie about being so out of control you can't see any light at the end of the tunnel. Believe me I have been there on some mornings. Definitely not fun. I work from home and believe me I have not been able to work for some time. I am so glad you are doing so much better. I love hearing success stories, it helps and gives me the hope I need. I am going to discuss bioidentical hormones with my GP next week. The ones that are plant based, I agree with you about the quality of life thing, I have missed out on so much already. Thanks for listening

      ❤️Debbie

    • Sochima822
      Sochima822 julie45644

      Posted

      This happened to me as well. About 6 years ago I had to leave my job too, since it was just impossible to work with my hormones out of control, with the crying and the up & down feelings of despair, I couldn't concentrate. My gyne put me on HRT, but it didn't work, so she switched me to low dose birth control pills which were great until I stopped taking them a year later. Then my symptoms came back 100 times worst!

      I'm doing much better now.  I remedied it with  flax seed drink, flax seed oil and hot flash pills.  However, even when taking them, I stil got stuck one day grocery shopping where I couldn't move. My body felt paralyzed. I remember feeling okay but I just couldn't move. I was lucky to have been with my sweetie who was caring and helped me get some fresh air.

      How long are you going to be on HRT? My aunt was on them but was taken off after 3 years. She said, her gyne told her that HRT is good for short term, when you're on them too long that's when you run the risk of possible side effects.

      Have a nice day. X

    • julie45644
      julie45644 Sochima822

      Posted

      I intend to keep taking for as long as it works. Don't feel I have any choice given how bad things are without.

      I believe that I would have taken my own life if the dark moods had continued.

      I just wish I had been told that this could happen. I had no idea and with regular periods and no other symptoms I just thought I was going mad.

      I wish you well. Let's hope we all come back stronger and happier than before x

  • misty36246
    misty36246 debbie_18471

    Posted

    Debbie I feel the same anxiety chest pain stomach problems it goes on and on I keep saying there is light at the end but the symptoms keeping pulling up. The GYN gave me a combination patch but I still find myself with on and off symptoms I have been told magnesium b complex help I did start taking them and noticed a little difference I hope this helps you knowing others are feeling many of the same feeling that cause anxiety in our lives
  • sammeam
    sammeam debbie_18471

    Posted

    Have you seen your Doc? I took an antidepressant for 8 months and still take a beta blocker to keep anxiety at bay and calm heart palpitations. It will get better. I had 2 very difficult years but am finally beginning to feel like myself again. I never thought I would.

    And TV is exactly that. It isnt real. Look at all the women on here, speaking out, suffering with you. You are no way alone.

    Cry lots, sleep lots, look after yourself. Its going to be alright.

  • nic1976
    nic1976 debbie_18471

    Posted

    Hi

    You have just described exactly what I do and think!!! It's so hard trying to keep a smile on your face when your mind is in turmoil. This has just happened to me in the last 4 months and I suppose having people to talk to about this helps a lot. After a conversation with my doctor about all my symptoms she quickly put it down to anxiety! I don't believe face flushes, night sweats, hip pain and the awful feelings are all down to that.

Back to top

Report or request deletion

Thanks for your help!

We want the community to be a useful resource for our users but it is important to remember that the community are not moderated or reviewed by doctors and so you should not rely on opinions or advice given by other users in respect of any healthcare matters. Always speak to your doctor before acting and in cases of emergency seek appropriate medical assistance immediately. Use of the community is subject to our Terms of Use and Privacy Policy and steps will be taken to remove posts identified as being in breach of those terms.