i just want to talk to someone.
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I am sat here on this site, I don't want to knock it because I know so many rely on it for support and get a lot of benefit out of it. I hope so of my comments have helped, but I at the moment i don't think they have.
what am I trying to get at you ask, I just feel i want someone to talk to me, ask how I am doing. The friends I socialize with never ask but there again I have never told them how bad things have got since sept. In sept I have said my meds have been changed by the GP because I was struggling, but no one has asked how are things going, since then meds have been changed again and they don't know, I have been referred to psychiatric services. The number of times I have thought about getting my stash out of tablets out have been quite a few particularly over last month. I think psychiatric services are quite concerned but i have to wait till wed to find out what is going to happen ( my case is to be discussed with psychiatrist tomorrow at the MDT) although they asked me to take my tablets in but I said i didn't want to, they have asked me to phone in if I am getting the urge to take them. Me being me will probably not phone as I tend to solider on and not bother people.
sorry for moaning you probably have more problems than me, as I do have a good life, nice home no financial worries, not in an abbusive relationship good kids. I just feel no one cares about ME and that is why life is not worth living and I would be better off dead.
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jemimah88932 Desperate_now
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Desperate_now jemimah88932
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deirdre._03652 Desperate_now
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Please, please.do not feel so sad.xx you are a valuable member on the health forums and I am sure have given hope to make others.....
Every single answer is really appreciated by someone, I am certainly sure that very many others care greatly for you, quite often though we do not tell each other enough......please try to talk openly to your family and friends, I am sure that they all love you......
Very warmest wishes, and sincere apologies to you... DEIRDRE xxx
frustrated61 Desperate_now
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Sometimes when one replies and it's in a positive way, other's don't realize that you're hurting as well. You seem to be the strong one. Other's admire that and want for that as well.
I'm not making excuses just showing you that this may be the case. Depression is so different to many. And, at that same time, it's so much alike. I think we all needed this wake up call to remember that even if the reply seems positive, it just may be that the person is trying to make us feel good. We should remember to make the person replying feel good and needed as well.
Diane, you sound like a lovely person. Your home life seems like one many would give their eye tooth to have. I can understand that sitting in a world of greatness, you can still feel all alone. I hope you keep posting on here as you are worthwhile and you just may help that one person get over that hump.
I hope to see more of your posts!
Warm regards,
Frustrated
marie31094 Desperate_now
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Firstly there are a lot of us out here who feel the same way! People do not tend to ask how you are if you have a 'normal' exterior and unfortunately I have found out that if someone cant see a problem, then to them, it doesnt exist. You sound exactly as I feel...no real problems, but the 'every day' things weigh you down like you wouldnt believe. Sometimes, just looking at the washing pile is enough to send you on a downward spiral, but you WILL feel better if you put the washing in the machine! I know that its only a small thing, but its a step in the right direction, believe me - I have been through it all just the same and the tablets sometimes have seen a good way out of things. The only thing when you think about this is to think about the people who would be devastated if you did something silly...this has stopped me before from doing something and I couldnt put the family I love through this. Everyone on here is struggling with some kind of medical problem and Im sure that everyone feels exactly the same as you do...its the condition we have Im afraid. However, having said that, there IS a way forward and I have foung that talking to someone is a great help. Also, I have now started to write down how I feel and that is an outlet for some of the negative feelings that I have...it puts your feelings 'in order' and perhaps you can look at them in a better way when you see it on paper.
I have just finished seeing a mental health professional for depression and some of the things which they give you to read are a great help, so dont give up hope. There are lots of things out there which can give you support, and lots of very nice people on here who will also do the same.
Dont give up! x
Desperate_now
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elizabeth20203 Desperate_now
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Elizabeth.
Desperate_now elizabeth20203
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good luck keep me informed.xxx
elizabeth20203 Desperate_now
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Elizabeth.
anne240 Desperate_now
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Love yourself and yes life is worth living. You have a lovely family so please do not make them suffer. I took an overdose once, and I am glad I survived. I know depression is a cruel illness, and takes away so much. I have lost jobs, house and relationships because of depression, but I am still here, and still fighting. I do not want depression to win.
Hang on in there. It will get better, I know, because I have beenwhere you are now, honestly. You won't believe me now because you are so low, but a lot of us have been where you are. Let me give you hope and say I battled on, and I am glad I did.
UK-Ven-medicate Desperate_now
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we all care for each other here. I like yourself reply to people and rarely talk about myself ( there are time when I post to get advice from the vast knowledge thats in the forum ) I think i have spoke spoke with you when getting advice. I like you and many others am struggling with physical pain at the moment which is affecting me as well as a difficult divorce settlement which is cause lots of pain and frustration. I like to come on here as I am not judged and it helps me to help others too which does give me some postive boosts. I hope you get the treatment you need and start to feel better soon. Stay with the forum as it's a good support network and people like you are key to its success.
Elizabeth.
UK-Ven-medicate
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Elizabeth I hope you are ok to as your another rock to lean on in these forums and give such solid and empathetic advice
elizabeth20203 UK-Ven-medicate
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Best wishes.
Elizabeth.
UK-Ven-medicate elizabeth20203
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frustrated61 UK-Ven-medicate
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Sorry I jumped in and posted what I was thinking. I hope you don't mind. Also, I couldn't agree more regarding Elizabeth, she's wonderful!
Warm regards,
Frustrated