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I'm a hypocrite

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hedda99
hedda99

I've told other people on here not to do anything 'stupid'. But I have times when I really have had enough and don't want to be here anymore. I don't really want to k*ll myself, I've just simply had enough. I've had my initial appointment with the mental health team but that was weeks ago and I'm not on any meds at the moment. There are so many things from my past, plus everything that is going on in my life right now, and I honestly can't take anymore. I don't want to 'keep going' any longer. I've been doing that for years now and I'm TIRED. I mean REALLY TIRED. I have zero energy and can't take care of anything properly. I don't have any real support. I feel completely alone and have no-one I can truly lean on. I need help. I really do. I can't do this on my own anymore - I just want to lie down and not get back up again.

Anyway, today is one of those really bad days. I won't do it. At least I think I won't. I have kids. But I just don't know. I feel trapped.

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    crystal24820 hedda99

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    hi i feel the same way sometimes i just wanna die i tried to kill my self once with pills i just wanted to not feel pain and deppresion and extream anxiety ptsd and i dont want live with my IBS problems anymore. i hate my life but i keep thinking about my childern i cant leave them again. I felt so bad trying before. But its always in my mind.i was seeing a therapiest but i could on a bus nobody could take me. But i fear being in cars or buses specially after being in a big bus accident and hurt my back had back surgery. And also my IBS anxiety triggers it. So i stoped going.i wanna go but know one is near were i live.
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