I'm feeling so much better :)

It wasn't easy to say the least, at times I wanted to die, waking up in the mornings was the worst, I didn't want to be here, my children and family were all very concerned and I was close to being sectioned, but thank God I am on my way to recovery, I hope and pray that allwgo are going through this most deliberating condition will find the right meds for them X

Your very strong Angie. I went through a very very hard time starting citalopram. That's wbu I'm suprised Prozac is so smooth right now but it's only day 2 fingers crossed.

Hi Luci11

The changes were gradual, on a day to day basis, I feel stronger each day, my mind is not working overtime, the negative thoughts are much weaker, although entirely gone, I acknowledge that my mind and emotions need to heal, and intend to excerise and try and focus, although much better, I was very ill, and will take time for my mind to recover, one day at a time, there's so much pain on these sites, I was obsessed with reading, scanning the internet for answers, not sure if some ppl who get better skip off into the sunset? But I couldn't do that I wanted to let ppl know, hang on, you can do it!! 🙏🏽😘

Hi Angie,

thank you for sharing!

Oh you raise a good question. A lot of people share the pain and difficulties with the side effects online and then the updates stop. I am also hoping it means they got really well and no longer need support in sharing experiences?!

Your approach sounds healthy; acknowledging the anxiety and observing it, focusing on recovery and also see what you can do to help the recovery outside waiting the medication to kick in. We also need to put in some work, though when feeling low it does sometime feel like there is no strength for it. I also want to exercise, I used to do regularly before my depression/anxiety, just finding it hard to get back into it now with the low energy from not eating that much for weeks. Fresh air also majorly helps me, walks and seeing outside life going on, spring in bloom etc. And spending time with friends.

Yes, we can do it. Even when having a low day and very anxious, I am feeling some signs of strength and determination buried deep within that I can do it and others too. Maybe that is the sign of improvement too.

Hi All,

Well not sure how to describe how I'm feeling now, for the last couple of days my mood has been low, I don't want to do anything but sleep, which is not helpful because my minds awake...It's sunny outside, but my blinds are down, appetite has subsided whereas a few days ago I was eating, I supposed my recovery is not as fast as I thought ! X

sorry to hear that! But I think it is normal. From what everyone says this medication is not a straight line up recovery, but there are blips. I know it feels discouraging after having seen some improvements. But the improvements, even if lasting just a few days, must be sign of recovery being on the way. I am in week 5 and over last week had 3 great days, then 2 low days and now 2 days sort of feeling flat, not happy but not terribly anxious either.

Try to get out in the sun, it will help!!! And be patient with yourself and kind to yourself.

Luci

Thanks Hun, I'm up and dressed, pushing through, it's not easy this is it? How has it been for you? I feel like my minds being held in a grip, kinda numb, obsessive thoughts that sink me deeper, not sure about my emotions either, wow it was lovely to have been me even for that short space of time, I'm going to see it as the mess are working 👍🏽 It's surprising but comforting when I read the posts on here, just how similar we all are....?🙏🏽

Hey Angie, well done for getting dressed and being up and about. I went to park for a few hours in the sun. Yes I know what you mean about obsessive thoughts. Since being on the meds my anxious thoughts have actually increased. Before the meds I was down, emotional, crying and sometimes feeling like not coping, but the meds made me suddenly overthink and have really fearful thoughts, especially in week 3-4. Like I would even take on fear of situations that were not even mine (for example if a friend expressed worry about work, finances or coping with children, I would feel anxious that in their situation I would not cope). And generally increase my feeling that I will not get better. Not really what I wanted! Then when I have some 'good days', my mind feels rather numb, just as you describe it, like compressed, and like it is not me, and in this state I feel like I cannot get upset about anything, but I don't really feel any happiness or relaxed state either. Like a dumbed down anxiety. So really not sure if the medication is helping the way I would like it. But I will give it one more week, I have GP review after 6 weeks on it.

I think I need to really try now to do more exercise, walking, meditation and maybe healthy juicing daily, go back to some creative stuff (I like to draw) to stimulate endorphins and good type of adrenaline, to help the recovery, and not rely just on the meds to do the trick...

Right now I feel dizzy, with head pressure and blurred vision, I get this every day around 6pm for a few hours, like clockwork.

Hang in there, just over 2 weeks is not much, I was probably at my worst during 2-3 weeks, anxious shivers every morning and night, afternoons were better.

Here if you want to chat xx

Thank Luci, I'm not feeling too good right now, unmotivated and tired, laying on the settee, another beautiful day, which I would have embraced before, I'm just surviving, haven't ate anything yet, my mind feels almost numb, apart from the obsessive thoughts, when I try and think of a Postive thing to do, the anxiety starts to bubble up, and I don't want that feeling, so avoid making plans, I wonder at times is it mind over matter? Can I change this? I read all the suffering on these posts, and it doesn't inspire me, I just want her back....😥