I'm losing it again

Okay, so i recently started working as an ironworker for the last 6 months. It was a big leap into unfamiliar territory, but at an apprentice level, the pay was pretty good and I needed a decent income while me and my wife finished up college. Well during the long time working in this field, i noticed something. I began to change as a person. I noticed my PVC started to clear up, im guessing because I was active all day working instead of like my last job sitting at a desk, making collection calls. I did, however start to eat poorly again, as the job didn't allow much time for lunch, causing me to pack chips, cheap sandwiches, and gas station snacks. Also, this meant that dinner was often in a take out bag because I simply didnt have time to cook and neither did my wife. I was so busy working I didnt even notice that a lot of my symptoms and health issues ive been complaining about started to clear up. No more panicky nights, I was sleeping like a baby (from exhaustion). My only concern with my health is a cough I developed of the evening. It came around a couple of months ago and doesnt bother me until around 8-9 at night, regardless of if im lying down or not. I figured it was from the welding fumes I have been breathing, along with burning steel and acetylene from a torch. But recently me and my wife had a discussion and she wants me to take a lesser pay job so I can be home more. To make that sacrifice, she has to pick up work as well, which she agreed to do. So here I am in between jobs, my new job starts next week, my old job stopped last week. The week that i have been off, I still have that lingering cough of the night. But my PVC started to act up again, having them daily now and Im having trouble sleeping. The weird feelings, almost like an out of body experience. Waking up in the middle of the night feeling "off" and almost like im a little crazy. Its strange that all of this is happening in the small amount of time im not working. I havent been worried or stressed out. My college is online and has been simple lately, so no triggers there. The job switch is actually a relief, so its not the issue. Doctors have never been able to tell me an answer after years of discussing with them the same issues among many others. So is this it? Do i need to accept the fact that my body is off in some way that is unexplainable or at least almost impossible to diagnose with modern medicine (or overlooked)? Because im losing hope. Im losing hope that one day I will feel normal again. maybe im nist crazy

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