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I feel confused,slightly nasty a little used although at the same time selfish my level of empathy often outweighs good/correct decisions.
So I met a woman two weeks ago we dated and well we all adults right so it progressed to the next level quickly.
This is rather embarrassing but I've only now slept with 3 women and I'm 40 (I know right but I'm very receptive to sensitivity) that and I'm scared to death of getting anything.
Anyway last night we got to talking and she confessed to me we had been having sex and needed to explore adventures that well frankly I'm really not interested in trying she is then pulled a huge box of different (tools) out that made me crinch.
I don't want to judge people here but I always thought that sex (making love) was about respect and the things she suggested where far to disrespectful for me to even entertain (maybe I'm prudish or just not wired up right)
She got rather colourful with words and called be naive for my age said I had a lack of experience and should of by my age tried these things she said sometimes I feel like I seeing a child because I didn't know what the hell the things even where or what you'd do with them.
She got nasty called me a coward because I wouldn't try things and because I didn't in my view what to disrespect her or us her as an object now I know what your thinking just get outta there right? Well that's the problem I said to her look we clearly don't want the same thing and I'd like to go home this is like 4am I live 32 miles away from her she refused to take me home and hit a bottle of vodka hard with every drink she got more and more aggressive and nasty asking me if I wanted to punch her.
I reassured her I wasn't like that and she could shout scream kick what ever is never hit her and said I'm going to go so I left I had to walk home because I didn't have my car and there was no taxi service in the area that would come out so I set to walking home.
She jumped in her car and followed me for approx 3 miles hurling abuse at me then she broke down in tears like I've never seen anyone do before it was terrible I wanted to hug her so much but I was so annoyed at what she had been doing I couldn't she followed me for another two miles telling me she couldn't be allowed and asked me to go bk with her but I refused telling her she was over the limit and to go home before she got arrested but she just kept screaming my name in the end I had to cut across three farmers fields to so she couldn't follow me and she's go home and not get arrested.
Any way I'm at home now and she hasn't stopped ringing me although I've not answered she's text me saying she wasn't in love with her ex but loved him she thinks but she wants to be with me because no one has treated her as an equal before the truth is she scared me last night she's been very vocal and endangered herself and others drink driving.
I do like her and wonder if the blatant disregard for her own and others well being is an indication to how much she likes me or whether it's something else maybe a control mechanism a way to get her own way I feel so bad for not answering her calls really I do you wouldn't beleive the state she was it relly sobbing uncontrollably screaming my name etc
What am i to do I don't want her to be hurting but I feel confused
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