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I really don't know what to say or do . I feel completely trapped and sick and I want to die . No one understands , no one can help me , I am so helpless and so sick and it is a constant circle . I'm 21 and dont want to live anymore and I know that might sound attention seeking but I honestly cannot handle the pain. It's day 17 of Prozac and I feel like how I did a year ago when I stopped taking seroquel an antipsychotic.. I feel like these drugs are harming my body I feel crazy .. I can only sit and lie in my bedroom I have no motivation or drive .. I am literally crying a and listening to music because anytime I leave my house I feel sick . Whatever is wrong with me is desteoying me . I see no hope . I'm afraid of people . I feel uncomfortable around people ... I feel sick .. I cant pay for something's or buy something it freak a me out .. I couldn't stay in the shopping centre or go food shopping because it freaked me out .. I feel dizzy light headed .. like my head would shake .. I could Tbilisi make eye contact .. I was paranoid I'd meet this woman I knew out and I would panic if I met her.. I'm even feeling this Wayne around my mothers boyfriend .. my aunts and uncles .. i feel this overwhelmingly discomfort .. I'm basically afraid of people .. and I'm sick around people ... I cant live anymore .. the pain of This is crazy .. I can't work , I'm afraid of working . I'm afraid of bosses .. I'm afraid of carrying out a job while someone else is watching or close by .. I feel so sick and I really don't know what to do anymore but lie in bed . No one can help me . Psychiatrists , counsellors .. my mom .. no one . It isn't horrible . I don't know if it will pass .. I have been feeling like this for a month now . I'm getting really sick . And I cant help myself . I don't want to be this way . There is nothing I can do . It would be different if I had an issue with a thing but it's with people and with being around people .. and these tablets are making it worse .. I actually can't tell if it's me or the tablets or what or who I am anymore . I feel helpless and lost .. and useless I cant do anything . I cant drive . I can't shop I can't work I can't be around people.. I'm fixated on This one individual and meeting her .. it's destroying my life' .. I have a stupid head shake which I cant get rid of and I don't known if other stuff can see it.. I'm so angry and so mad with the world .. an drew why I have this stupi illness
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