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I do have a fear of dying I won't deny that, But lately I'm at a point where I just think it's time to go...
I honestly can't put up with this anxiety any longer, like actually, It's getting to a point where I just don't know how to break free of what I am feeling.
This has been ongoing for around 2 months. First it started with what I believe is sleep apnea symptoms, waking up gasping for air feeling strange and off the next day felt fatigue for the first month.
Then my anxiety came back, Had 4 massive panic attacks the first one did something honestly.
What I mean is the first one was so severe and the breathing was so intense that I was close to passing out and ever since I've felt numbness consistently whether I am relaxed or stressed even when I wake up it's still there I just can't shake it off.
I've been breathing rapidly lately been using a brown paper bag to try help but it's truthfully not working, I've been getting aches all over my body, the fatigue is through the roof, Numbness in my body every single day, Even lately when I'm falling asleep or trying to sleep its like my body shuts down to a point where I'm dead but my brain triggers saying "wake up so you don't die"
I'm just losing control, I see psychologists and everything, seen my GP like 4 times in the last week and my life just went from being really good to the sh*tter really really fast and unexpected.
I just don't know what to do who to turn to for help.
I've been on mirtzapine but I'm not depressed just depressed that this is happening all of a sudden but I'm honestly thinking suicidal every single day lately just because this is something I've never experienced before and it's so consitent that I just honestly feel like I have no options..
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