I'm too scared to talk to anyone...
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It all started a few years ago when I got bullied in school and I never recovered, but instead I compressed all my feeling for the last 4 years and a couple of weeks ago it's all burst out. I started cutting my wrists and went to my schools counsellor, she helped for awhile but then I couldn't sleep or eat then I started to feel sad all the time about nothing and everything, every little thing made me sad, no matter what it was. Even the smallest thing, I over thought everything. I started to shut out my friends and family and I couldn't talk to anyone. I still am too scared. Help, please
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deb44437 Pamela742
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Hi Pamela.. darling girl, Im so sorry about your dealings with school bullies.. I can not emphasise enough, the importance to deal with those compressed thoughts you have buried inside.. Its great to see that you had a need to seek counselling while you were at school Pamela.. I really want to encourage you to find a service where you can receive further help from a psychologist/counsellor so you can nip this problem before it spirals any further.. You deserve to feel happy, content, enjoy life, fall in love, have children, lots & lots of good things that life has to offer you.. Make new friends along the way, plan exciting adventures & explore the world perhaps? Time to seek that help, let go of that fear & hurt dont you think? Pluck up some courage sweetheart, aim for the future & with some help, leave that horrid past and move on. I believe you can do it Pamela. xx
sue58256 Pamela742
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darling I understand how you feel not to the point of self harming but I too went through physical abuse growing up. my father was a very strict disciplinarian and I was bullied constantly two years Im 53 and still "scared" of people even if some one raises their voice I have slight bladder control but I'm starting to get better slightly I always feel Ive done something wrong but ive started to well I have had one session of cbt where I poured my heart out but it was good and a release. MY problem is I cant let go of all the past hurt I've kept it inside for all this long but I realise I have to let go and move on so I can find that inner peace for myself I hope you may find that peace one day
katherine_18195 Pamela742
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Please belive youre worth somthing. Life really does get better. Breath deep and talk it out. there are amazing people here who can really help you. Just give yourself a chance <3
richard89308 Pamela742
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pamela, bullies don't usually feel any remorse so why are you continuing to take it out on your body. You have become your own bully by self harming. Talk to the counsellor and get out all your hurting verbally so that you realise then that you have been transferring all the hurt onto your wrists.