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In February after some 'things' ( bad and good ) that happened in my life I started having anxiety attacks ( which I never really had before my life - I am 20 btw) At first the attacks were about my health ( I thought I was not breathing and I that I was having a heart attack my pulse and bp were sky rocketing ) so one day i couldn't handle it and I went to the ER and I had an ECG which was fine and couple of days later I went again to my doctor and I had an echo and another ECG. The doctor assured me everything was fine with my heart but he gave me propranolol because he could see I was extremely stressed out even after he assured me I was okay. So 2 months went by with the stressfull moments scaring me out and draining me of my energy but I on the bright side I was really trying to make myself believe that nothing was wrong about my health. Once though I ruled everything that could be wrong about me I started stressing about my family's health to the point that I couldn't consedtrate on my exams. Once I could see my family was okay I started stressing abut my health all over again - that's how the 2 months went by . So yesterday my exams ended and instead of enjoying it I started stressing about my health, I was sure I wasn't breathing at a point and I started obsessing that I will die 'soon'. All these thoughts came to my head yesterday because I realized that on Wednesday I am taking a trip. I have this scary feeling now that I will die 'soon' and all I am trying to do is convince myself that this is my anxiety, but I just can't. I made a connection that something will happen during the trip and I am freaking out about the flights. Please some advice because it will be a five hour trip and I feel like I would likekly freak out in the middle of the flight . I should be really looking forward to this trip because I am seeing friends I haven't seen in a long time but still I am so scared. ( and to be honest once I try to convince myself nothing bad will happen while I am on the plane I started thinking that I will die 'soon' after that and not get to live my life ) please some advice because last time it did really help ? And is my anxiety that makes me feel like I will die 'soon' right ?
P.S. With soon I don't know when, if it is in weeks or months , it is just a vague feeling but it sure feels close
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