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I always had problems with anxiety specially with social anxiety. All those fears were cleared away when I meter the most wonderful person ever, my girlfriend. In the year that we have been dating, it has been the best time of my life, I have literally never been happier. It has been amazing. But a month ago, college started for me, a major change in my life in every way, and in one of the first days I felt really tired and she was hanging out with me at my place and for the first time in a year I had the feeling of "I dont want to have her here right now". I instantly panicked about it and for the longest time I thought that it meant that I was starting to love her less and was terrified of it. But I realised recently that that wasn't my problem because whenever I was with her I still felt the same joy and sweetness I had always felt. So let's get to the point.. I realised that my problem is that college has triggered my anxiety back again, because now whenever I think about something I can't let it go, if a negative thought or idea comes to my mind then it never leaves and its all I think about. And trust me guys its been killing me, I cry almost everyday, I dread the thought of coming to college day after day and most importantly I can't let go of bad thoughts. I can't function properly anymore, I'm functioning based on how much I'm thinking about bad things. I found that the only situation where I do nothing but think about those things is when I'm in college. I really need help, I'm even thinking of giving up college to see if this stops because I don't know what else to do.. I'm constantly on the verge of a breakdown.. The only way all this goes away is when I am with my girlfriend, and luckily we live pretty close so we can be together everyday but mostly just at the end of the day because during the Day I'm in college and she's working so I have to find another way to make it go away, preferibly for ever. I typed this in college sitting alone at the table, almost breaking down.. Please give me advice I feel like a prisioner of my own mind..
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