I started getting very depressed, because of anxiety symptoms

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So for the last couple of days I feel completely lost, sad and feel like there is no exit anymore. I feel like I do not want to live anymore and at the same time I do not want to die. I feel like I'm in my dreams and that this is not real and that one day I will wake up and everything is going to be good again. I feel like my whole body is just falling apart, but deep inside it is still fighting to the last second. I'm dizzy, I have depersonalization, tingling sensations in my head and chest... My vision feels weird, not real... noisy and the floaters are bothering so much that I do not want to go outside anymore (I still go because I know I have to).There are not so many of them, but I can stop focusing on them.... I am short of breath all the time for like 7 months now... This is just disaster.  I want to cry soo much, but for some reason I just can't and the feeling is even worse. I am fighting every day as much as I can... Sometimes I feel a bit better mentally (rarely physically), but it feels like I will never ever going to experience real "life" again. I feels like I have nothing left. 

If you have antything to motivate me again, I would really appreciate it.

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    My friend,

    Cheer up as it gets better. This anxiety thing sucks because it just hits you out of nowhere. All these unusual feelings and symptoms that you've never felt before. You feel like you have a loaded gun on the side of your head just waiting for it to go of. Waiting and sitting Cuz you know its going to go off. And when it goes off it sucks so bad because you feel like everything is falling apart. There is no way out. You can't breathe. There is no light out the tunnel. But my friend. There is. I had it way rough as we have all had. It's been a nightmare. I never really came to the point where I didn't want to live anymore but Ive been to the point where I would literally just lay in bed all day. Because of the pain and because I didn't know what is going on. Going to the hospital and multiple doctors and they can't tell you what's erong. But dude, this only makes you stronger. There is a light at the end of it all. You gotta fight man. Imagine this thing as something holding you back from achieving your goal. You are not going to let it stop you okay. You are stronger than tbis. You are going to prevail. We are all suffering. If you want man I'll suffer with you. But please don't think about this is not worth it. Life is worth it. It gets better I promise. You'll be okay. This is a phase in your life that you are going to look back and laugh and smile. Smile because it made you stronger and made you more aware. We are here for you.

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      Thanks a lot for your reply. It means a lot to me. I just can't believe how bad this is right now. It feels like I will never be "HappyGuy" again. 1 year ago my life was just perfect, everything was perfect and out of the blue all there is just suffering every single day. I'm so exhausted, it is so hard to take this. Don't worry I will fight to the end, but I just can't live like that anymore. I know how good life can be. I was probably the happiest person in this world, but now everything just collapsed and it feels like it will never be the same again. 

      Thanks again ! You are amazing smile I will visit some friends now. This could help me a little bit.

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    I can relate to everything you said I know how you feel and how all this makes you feel. I'm so depressed over all this I'm in bed most days all day I've basically given up on living life even if i try I'm getting bombarded with symptoms out of the blue. Like you I fear this is life for me til the end it's scary and makes everything worse worrying about it. I feel most days like I want to jump out my own skin and just run from all this horrible hell. Don't give up keep fighting I'll help you the best I can you can private message me we can switch cell numbers whatever it takes to get through this. Just don't give up I know it's hard but one day we both can look back and say we did it we fight and we beat anxieties ass. Sometimes I force myself out of bed and walk outside not for long but maybe 10 min the heat I can't tolerate makes my heart race. Is there anything you enjoy doing or did enjoy doing before anxiety hit?

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      It feels good to know that people are going through the same thing as I am. I usually manage to get out of bed, but it is so exhausting to do anything productive in the whole day. The anxiety feels like forever now. I just want to live normal life. Not perfect, just normal thats all I want. I did enjoy sports, but I am scared of it now for some reason. I am not used to my heart beating faster. It sounds so dumb after being extreme sportsman back in the day and now I am scared of my own heartbeat. The thing is that I felt some skipped beats and now I am scared that my heart won't be able to take it even though my doctors gave me a green light to live normally. If you happen to need any help too, you can pm me too. You can reach out to me too if you need smile

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