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I think I know what triggers my anxiety and I think its my relationship, I've posted a few times on here about my relationship problems but its got to the point now where I feel like I know what I need to do but its so difficult and I just need some advice and inspiration.
I recently lost my job and my partner doesn't have one, he sits on his computer and plays games literally all day hes nearly 20 and im 19 next friday. I explain to him hes making me feel depressed and like he doesnt want to spend time with me but he continues to ignore me, I feel like Im trying to sort of BOTH our lives and its putting pressure on me so much, its easier to sort my own out and I know that, I worry if I leave him it'll make me feel worse or I could bounce back up and feel like myself and get myself on track. I've got sooo used to being with him all the time I feel anxious without him. Its difficult, hes says hes depressed sometimes and he has self harmed before when we've argued which makes me feel guilty so I feel like I can't express my feelings too much with him.
How do I leave somebody who gives me the anxiety but is also maybe the only person who can take it away sometimes aswell? I know it may sound stupid and you'll be like 'you're only young bla bla' but its truely become a problem and I just need some honest opinons and advice. This time last year I was working abroad by myself and meeting brand new people, now I find myself sitting in my boyfriends bedroom being ignored half the day and my family not understanding why I'm really with him. I do love him to peices we've been together a while and been through a lot but I feel like my heart is telling me I need him but my heads saying Katie dont be stupid you dont need him.
Can anyone help me?
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