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hi there, first time doing something like this so it may be too brief in what im going to say. I guess I should start from the beginning of it all. July 27 I ended a 5 year abusive relationship of which I have 3 children. My reason for leaving was I began to talk to my "childhood" love. Since then I've got married and things in my new relationship are amazing. Yet I have a huge dark cloud hanging over me, I have not seen my kids since October as I'm currently fighting court orders and trying to gain the courts help in allowing me to see them. To top this all of I lost my grandad recently and I cannot cope with everything all at once. My wife has done an amazing job at trying to keep me going but as hard as she try's I can't mentally deal with the stress. I feel like giving up crawling into a corner and just sleeping for a very long time. I'm without a job, struggling financially to a point where I'm now just ignoring every bill, letter, phone call. I don't know if this all sounds pathetic, so many have already said"deal with it" or "it will work out" that at every point where I may feel happy something drags me down. I also feel angry to a point of where I want to kick the crap out of every wall or every door in my home. I'm trying I really am but I just can't deal with everything and it all hurts so much.
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