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I just love the support here, but i sit and read all this and i wanna cry my eyes out. I know we are all different but i can have what i feel are my own peri experiences and then read someone else’s and start feeling theirs too? Is it power of suggestion? im so upset tonight i cant hardly believe ill ever be ok again. I read one persons nightmare and feel so scared ill do same or am doing same and afraid its gonna get worse in meno? im like two mo away from my 12 mo. (second time) i think i do better than some i read are feeling really sick and desperate but then i wonder if im in denial that what i feel might be considered bad to another and im not getting help i need because im trying to be tough and not take hormones. my work suffers because i cannot get up in am. i feel like ive just come out feom under anesthesia! lol i have to set up first then set side of bed then get up slowly and sometimes im like . “ heck no” and lay back down. im running on zero and then i get upset i have to work like this, my leave is gone and i have no choice. it’s backed me in a corner and i feel threatened. getting sad makes me more lethargic to boot. im 49 and single w no 2nd income. im sorry for whining. i have 31 yrs in gov and i just wanna retire and get myself together again physically and emotionally sooo bad.
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