I thought I could do it but I cant.

jessie, welcome back! i admire your strength to take another chance on seeking answers. unfortunately, depression doesn't go away if you ignore it. at times it can only get worse. you've received some great advice already, i agree with just about everyone. and i believe you know that you would benefit seeking out a doctor, and perhaps take medication...greatly helps many mental disorders. but right now you are uncomfortable discussing this with your mom. i get it. i suffered for years before i could approach my parents about my concerns. my family was (and still are) not believers in depression. they thought i was being "dumb" and lazy. and worse yet, they would never want people to know there might be someone mentally ill in THEIR family. oh i remembered how ashamed i felt, and how much i suffered.it's a horrible thing to happen to anyone. i was miserable, and not well enough to seek help on my own. so i finally tell them how i felt in my early twenties, as hard as it was, i did it. and then got their assistance finding a doctor. and eventually got better. but i suffered needlessly for the longest time because i couldn't bring myself to bring this subject up to them. and it sucked horribly to tell them! they did not make it easy for me. but i need for you to know that difficult conversations do not last forever. it passes. and life goes on! you need to get the courage to bring this up to your mom. hopefully she'll support you. you'll get better either way, but you should take steps now. don't wait too long. maybe your boyfriend can keep you company when you tell her. you sound like such a sweet person, you shouldn't waste time suffering. good luck to you, things will likely work out!

truly, laura

Jesse have you been to a doctor about this. I hear you need to but not that you actually did. Does your age have something to do with your seeing a therapist or doctor. You have to make someone listen, really listen so you can get help. You said your mom would say it was dumb but have you actually tried. You have to make a believer in her that you are serious and realy want help. A lot of people just don't understand depression and more awarness should be out there to make people realize its real and people are not all the same. Deprssion is a disease and needs attention just like dibetes, cancer or any other medical issue. You have a lot of living to do and you should be happy. If you can't get anyone to take you serious then go to a mental health center, hospital or amy doctors office and make them listen. I needed help years before I got help because of my parents but I feel the results, they don't. We really care about each other here and want to help. I pray you find your help and feel better soon. God bless you and Im prsying for you.

 I thought If I just stopped thinking about it and ignored it I would maybe feel different

No, it doesn't work that way. If you stop talking about a problem and live in denial, the only consequence is that there is a delay in receiving help.

You have every right to see a doctor - it's up to you, not your mother. Even if your parents did not consent to your treatment, there are legal procedures in place that could result in overturning their decision. What you describe sounds like a depression and your condition should be evaluated by a specialist. The sooner the better...

Depression is very real. Fortunately, it can be successfully treated with a combination of medicines and talking therapy.

Have courage, seek help. I’ll keep my fingers crossed for you.