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Like the title says - I've been shy and anxious since I was a child because of the things I had to deal with as a Child (Domestic Violence between parents etc) - I turned this all around when I was in high school (year 10) was alot more confident if not too confident and it was great, I was popular, I started smashing exams and then I left highschool 3 years ago.
I began College doing Computers, I flew through it and finished june of last year, and because I basically made my money from home I never needed to look for a career (I ran an online Business which I stopped).
Basically I went on Holiday last summer and came back not in the same frame of mind, I start feeling sick when I go to restraunts, when I'm in a busy area like a Bar/Pub - I've suddenly developed travel sickness and I start shaking with nerves if I have to do something not in my daily routine e.g. Go to the bank/Barbers. (I've become distant with my friends because they work 9-5 every day, and go clubbing on the weekend in which I cannot do because i'm too anxious anymore to go out drinking) I'm stuck in my room with nothing to do & my main problem is that I can't look people in the eyes which is a constant strain on my mind as it isn't normal, I can't glance or look at their nose for some reason.
I've spoken to my Doctor who has refered me to some councelling place in my Town, which they have turned round and said because I'm not suicidal I'm not important and have to wait 4-5 months to be seen (this is all well and good for someone who is mentally stable right now, but I specifically told them each day I'm doing less, going out hardly ever now and can't even get any benefits to keep me aloat until I start my councelling because I can't go the Job Centre.
All I'm looking for is some advice with someone with a similar problem, I don't even know why I'm writing this it just came to my head to get it out I guess.
No idea if this all made sense, but thank you if you attempted to go through this wall of text.
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