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I am a seventeen nearly eightteen year old male. I've come to the conclusion with my parents that I am depressed. My mother has had her fair share of depression aswell so I think it's genetic. I'm seeing a therapist now to help me get over it but it hasn't helped me all that much. My problem is that sometimes I don't feel love for anything. I just feel nothing. I am straight I'm quite sure of that but still at these moments when I don't feel anything (I call them 'blowbacks') I can not feel anything for a girl aswell. At these moments I can't see myself loving anyone or feeling attracted to any gender, I feel
asexual. During these 'blowbacks' my heart starts to beat super fast, I feel very nervous and get panic attacks and when I'm alone I start to scream and cry because I don't know what is happening to me and it freaks me out, a lot. So much so that I get very suicidal during these blowbacks which last for 10 to 30 minutes. I am worried one 'blowback' will never go away. or that I will have these reocurring feelings of numbness and asexuality for the rest of my life. Is this a common problem? Does depression cause this? Will it always be here or will these feelings go away? I just want to love someone again. With all my heart.
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