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So what happened is that people in my grade tried talking to me and making friends with me when I was younger, but I'm really weird and socially awkward, so I give off this really weird vibe that makes them think that I don't like them. Now I have the same classes with all these people and they obviously don't like me cause I'm so weird and indifferent. I just hate myself so much no one likes me at all and they all think I'm so weird and I always say the wrong thing when teachers pick on me and in general everyone finds me really cringe-worthy and disgusting. I hate myself so much and I just don't want to live anymore. I'm so disgusting I deserve hell. Even my own parents have told me that I'm a useless, worthless piece of s**t, and it's not like they're just saying that cause they're stressed out and taking their anger out on me, but I'm literal s**t. I suck at everything and I'm so weird and autistic that no one likes me. I just don't know why I should keep living anymore. I just can't find anything at all to live for. Sorry for the long rant. I would appreciate any help.
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Adldiane hi_23057
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hi_23057 Adldiane
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Thank you for responding. I will try talking to my parents;
Adldiane hi_23057
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Hey thanks for getting back I'm so glad that you are going to talk to your parents but will you keep us posted and keep talking to us in the mean time? Diane
hi_23057 Adldiane
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Yes of course. You're a really good person for taking time out of your day to help strangers on the internet.
Adldiane hi_23057
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hi_23057 Adldiane
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I'm feeling better, thanks for asking.
Adldiane hi_23057
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hi_23057 Adldiane
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hypercat hi_23057
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Hi try not to jump to conclusions about people and think you can know what they are thinking or feeling. The only way you would know for sure is asking them. I always find if you look interested in people you don't have to say anything and a smile goes a long way. You are overthinking things too much. x
hi_23057 hypercat
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Thank you for your advice. I'll try to follow it
thurmanmurman hi_23057
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Hypercat is right 🙂 I remember when i was in school, i thought i was the best body language/facial expression reader in the world bar none, i thought people had all sorts of terrible opinions of me. But it was only after school, particularly when i saw a therapist, that i learnt that this is one of the symptoms of depression: "mind-reading". You think people are thinking all sorts of things, but usually theyre either not thinking about anything to do with you, or its not something negative about you! You project your own feelings about yourself onto other people.
I understand the overthinking thing as well, again a symptom of depression "ruminating". Its hard to get out of that habit, but seeing a therapist can really help understand why you think like that and to get out of it 💚
hi_23057 thurmanmurman
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That's really interesting. Thank you for telling me about it.
Adldiane hi_23057
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Boy can I identify with what Thurman said! He is a pretty smart guy. Sounds like he's speaking from experience. Counseling has saved me! Diane
thurmanmurman Adldiane
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thurmanmurman hi_23057
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I hope it's helpful in some way to you. Its not easy to convince yourself that your thoughts right now arent true, but honestly: thoughts ARENT facts. X
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