i want an opinion...

i appreciate your concern... i really do.. thanks btw..i was talking about  my relatives... i really make me feel worse when i think about them... how they treated us when we needed them the most just drive me crazy... !!!!

 

Yeah, family can make you really mad - they are supposed to love you no matter what but they are people, and people are selfish sometimes. My family is not great... Parents went away when I needed them, to another country! I think this is always how it will be with these relatives, you can't change the bad ones, but you can appreciate the good ones more than ever xxx

thank you... i really need to hear that... but what i do to help myself with this emptiness that is becoming the part of me....i am really scared about it..

 

If you can talk to someone in your family that you trust, that will make you feel better. Have some time with that person, like a day out - really talk properly, and openly.

Are you busy? You need to keep busy! You might be having too much time to think about bad things....? xxx

 

that's the issue... i have stopped trusting people with my secrets... i just cant let anyone to think of how vulnerable i am... i want them to see me as strong person..

 

Are you the oldest of your siblings - is that why you have to appear strong? 

It might be a good thing for someone to understand why you are withdrawing from the family (people know something is wrong, even if you try to hide it, honestly) 

It would be a huge relief if you could tell somebody how sad you are - without going into detail, if you don't want to?

yes i am oldest among my siblings.... there's alot of things going on right now in my life...some of them bothering me badly... it's just i'm exhausted... i want these things to stop.. i need a break from everything but i just cant.. it's like i am in a vehicle which i cant control... with each passing day i am changing in a bad way.. i want to go along the circumstances without them affecting me.. i am trying hard not to get collapsed... to not give up... i'll keep on trying for myself...

You're not changing in a bad way Eman, you're only human. We can only deal with a certain amount in life. Too much at the same time is not good for us.... 

If my health is good but my job is bad that's one thing. If my job, health and family is wrong that's three - that's already too many! I believe we can only cope with two, maximum three at the same time.

You are also trying so hard to keep sane for your siblings, yes? If you want to take responsibility for others it's necessary to take care of yourself.... You need a break, like seriously. How can you be strong if you are tired and losing control?

What are the the other things happening? If you write them down you might find some relief. If it's written it's out. This is a very private place and we can share.

I wish you could take a holiday!

 

thank you farah for your kind words... i do read ... but i am not happy u know.. i dont know why??

 

you are the only one who is able to answer that .

let yourself to be happy by knowing what will makes you happy and fight for it !

and try to pray it will help you in your journey  

the most important thing is to love yourself cause you deserve to be loved and you deserve to be happy 

for me ma happiness where when I work hard to achieve something or earn it and now I am the one who is gathering everything to start my own business cause I know it will make me happy !

 

Happiness wont come knocking your door you have to find it .

i think you are right... i'll try and than let you know... keep in touch ...thank you once again..