I want to die
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I am so tired of living this worthless pointless life. I just want to die. Just recently had tests for stomach cancer and was so disappointed to learn that my polyps are benign. I want to kill myself but everyone will blame me if I do.
Every day is just a reminder that I'm a failure and will never amount to anything. I've worked my ass off and I've got nothing to show for it. I'm just not good enough, smart enough, and talented enough to make it in this world. i just want my suffering to end. I hate every single day of my life. My mother has rejected me and doesn't give a ahit what happens to me.
I have OCD, anxiety and depression. They never go away. Everyday is suffering and torture. I see no point to living at all. I pray every night that I don't wake up the next day. Knowing my luck I'll probably live a super long life. Whatever it takes for the universe to maximize my suffering.
Before anyone chimes in about meds and doctors. I do all of that, and nothing helps. I can't wait to die. Kill me now. Life is garbage and so am
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Emis_Moderator anon24548
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Hi anon24548,
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anon24548 Emis_Moderator
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Done this before, nothing helps
jan34534 anon24548
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ex navy seal david goggins . talk about horrible childhood! zero self esteem, felt like a nothing. couldnt read, write, bullied, and on and on! sprayed roaches for income.
you gotta listen to him and his story. if anyone had a reason to hate the world it was him. on you tube .
anon24548 jan34534
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I'm not sure how a story of how someone else's life was also terrible is helpful here?
georgina73181 anon24548
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herpes simplex virus still in life the body infection a week or month outbreak. man have a hvs Positive spread to your skin.
jan34534 anon24548
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because it shows how he turned his life around which is also what you can do. it’s a story that is real and it’s about fighting for your self and for your future. he didn’t wallow in self-pity . That’s why I
told you about it. Up to you....
anon50796 jan34534
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thats the story of an entirely different person, sure it might be "motivational" but it doesnt change anything