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Ive been on cit for 3 years.
I dont know how to describe the way I feel. The only way I can describe it is I feel the most inferior to any adult you could ever meet.
my situation is a reflection of this. The way My mum and sister speak to me mirrors this. The way my boss is with me also reflects this and, why do words spin in my head, over and over?
At first i was doing ok. Now I am down in the dumps again. I dont know what I am doing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If a certain someone says something to me, im in tears and cant fathom out why he manages to have power over me like this/ Thats when the suicidal thinking and total feeling of self worthlessness , and suicidal thinking pop in. So stupid!!!! I dont have any money to buy property so cant just get out. I have to wait on council to come up with the goods. i dont know where Im going to be living ....( mind you thats not a new thing) everytime he opens his mouth my heart is in my mouth , I scatch my skin and I cant be the person I want to be.
I used to be happy, bubbly even quite spritely-will I ever be like this again?
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