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Hi - I was just wondering if any of you lovely people would like to become friends with me - I have been suffereing depression since April now - i have had it twice before - I ha :lol: ve taken great comfort in reading the posts on here day after day yet never had the courage to reply to anyone or offer thoughts - My depression came again when i got pnumonia and lost my best friend suddenly - all this happened in one week - for many days sinec then I have felt so alone and suicidal - i do have friends who understand but have never had depression and i would love to become friends with any one who would like someone to talk too who can relate to how you all feel - i have friends but I could do with SOME REAL UNDERSTANDING FRIENDS - pls repsond to me i would love to chat to you all about our shared experiences and you never know you could help me as well ...... I am no longer on Fluoxetine as it made me feel worse- so I would love friends like you all so we can all make each other better or at least give each other support I look forward to heaing from you x
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Lovely to hear from and so close to me as well I am in Herefordshire - I had 40mg too before I realised they made me so much worse - I have felt so much better since the doctor weened me off .... still have really low days and awful thoughts but at least my heart is not racing and I dont miss the seaty underarms - i feel better and look better as well - its lovely to talk to someone who understands depression - most of the time i think im all on my own feeling like this - I have loads of self helf books and I know excercise is good too - however I have always hated excercise - yuk !!!! i always got a letter from mu mum to skip sports day - lol - im 37 by the way married in a job with two step children - im hoping that this weekend will be nice and i will have plenty to keep my occupied xx i cant wait to hear from you and let me know more about your expeiences x - I had diazapam as well !!! that conteracts the anxiety
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Lovely to hear from you again so soon - how fab seeing Batman - was it any good ! i havnt been to the cinema for ages now - we only have 1 screen where i live - you need to travel to glos or worcester for the big screens - im glad you managed to keep busy and i know what that feels like when you are somewhere that just reminds you of the person - I do understand how you feel - i often wish i could go back in time to when i thought i was happy just to revisit that feeling - it seems like a long time ago that i felt any happeniess - i either feel numb or i cry - i cry a lot just to get rid of the frustration - i hate crying though as i feel its weak but i feel better after .... i usually go and do it somewhere evry quietly ......- Liverpool sounds nice - i have been there a few times - i dont have any sisters or brothers - i bet thats nice to have someone to talk to .....im just at work but ill leave another post in my lunch hour - bah its dismal weather here today - we have been spoilt the last few days .......x
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yep weather here is horrible too - worse today and its so hot - its not very good at night is it - i have dreadful trouble sleeping .... heat just aggrevates it - no i am drug free at the moment - i was on fluoxetine 40mg and diazepam and knock out sleeping tablets - i liked the sleeping tablets as i got to sleep however i hated the anti depressants they made me feel worse.... the black cloud was 10 times worse and the monster inside me as i like to refer to it felt it was dragging me under - its not really a monster its just that gripping feeling of total blackness that can bring you to your knees and that horrible tight band around your heart pulling tighter all the time - so my doctor to alivate the anxiety gave me diazepam- as you know one of the side effects of fluoxetine is anxiety - i was on them about 12 weeks in all maybe just less but the doctor weaned me off as he thought and so did i was worse on them ... so im still depressed but just drug free and i feel better for not having them and i can promise you one day you will feel better as well !! its just a long road - im feel slightly shortchanged in lefr that I am the 1 in 4 statistic that has suffered and will suffer depression ..... how i long to be one of the other 3 that dont - lol xxxx i know how you feel and until you speak to people they really dont understand unless experiencing it themselves- how was swim training last night - it might not be exciting but at least you are getting out !!!! thats a massive step .... sometimes when im bad im too scared to go out .... how about that - however tonight I am - im going to the town hall to the let there be light !!! its a spiritualist meeting - its fun i go with friends and it passes some time - I however am skeptical as I am with most things !!! what arew you doing tonight when are you off to your sisters ,,,,, dont worry about repeating yourself the more you talk the easier it becomes x
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Justa quick note to you to wish you a lovely weekend with your sister in Liverpool - my friend is coming to stay with me for the weekend and Im really excited about it - i had a good time last night at the spiritualist church - my best friend who died 3 months ago left me a lovely message .... thats one of the reasons ive been suffering with depression - i had pnemonia and lost my best friend in the same week ...... any way lets hope yours and mu weekend is so much better than some of our recnet days
thinking of you - respond when you can
Tia
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Thanks for asking and listening :-)
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